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Bah\u00e7esindeki \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin bak\u0131ml\u0131\ntazeli\u011fi, yoldan ge\u00e7enleri onlar\u0131 koklamaya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yor gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p\nd\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kan iki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck o\u011flan, soka\u011f\u0131n sessizli\u011finde c\u0131v\u0131l c\u0131v\u0131l konu\u015fmalar\u0131yla\nbir an i\u00e7in kad\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme iste\u011fi uyand\u0131rd\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fck olan\u0131 sekiz\nya\u015flar\u0131nda olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Di\u011feri daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc. Be\u015f, belki alt\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Araya\nbelediyenin \u00e7\u00f6p konteyneri girince bah\u00e7e g\u00f6zlerinden sakland\u0131. O da bu s\u0131rada\nsoka\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7irdi. Elindeki adres kesinlikle yanl\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Etrafta\nbilgi alabilece\u011fi kimse olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na bakarken, ellili ya\u015flarda bir erke\u011fin\nyakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcp ona do\u011fru ilerledi. Adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme, d\u00fcnyaya\nba\u015fka bir pencereden bakman\u0131n ne kadar g\u00fczel oldu\u011funun kan\u0131t\u0131yd\u0131 sanki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBakar\nm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBuyurun.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Adam\u0131n\ng\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesine kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermemek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi. Tan\u0131d\u0131k bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k yay\u0131ld\u0131\ni\u00e7ine bir an. O da g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cElimde bir\nadres var ama do\u011frulu\u011fundan emin de\u011filim. K\u0131rkkonaklar dedikleri yer sadece\nburas\u0131 m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Adam cevap\nvermeyince, \u015fa\u015f\u0131rarak g\u00f6zlerini elindeki k\u00e2\u011f\u0131ttan kald\u0131rd\u0131. Yumu\u015fac\u0131k g\u00f6zler\nhala ona bak\u0131yordu. Ama g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme neredeyse silinmi\u015f, yerine teredd\u00fctl\u00fc bir\nbak\u0131\u015f gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Soruyu\ntekrar soracakken, birden yutkundu kad\u0131n. Daha sert baksayd\u0131 o g\u00f6zler\u2026 Daha kan\n\u00e7ana\u011f\u0131 olsa\u2026 \u0130lgisiz\u2026 A\u015fa\u011f\u0131lay\u0131c\u0131 hatta. Y\u00fcz\u00fc donukla\u015ft\u0131, elindeki k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t\ns\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yumru\u011fun i\u00e7inde h\u0131rpaland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cMerhaba\nprenses.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tanr\u0131m \u00e7ok\nyumu\u015fakt\u0131 sesi. Pamuk kadar. \u0130pek kadar. S\u0131cac\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hayallerindeki\nhoyrat g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcyle alay eden adama \u00f6ylece bakt\u0131 kad\u0131n. Bilinci fark\u0131na vard\u0131\u011f\u0131\nbu yeni bilgiyi kabullenmeye direniyor ama adam\u0131n ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda\nyeniliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNe kadar\nb\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>B\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\nm\u00fcyd\u00fc? B\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fse neden kendisini sekiz ya\u015f\u0131nda gibi hissediyordu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O anda\nbah\u00e7eden f\u0131rlayan iki \u00e7ocuk, \u201cBaba!\u201d naralar\u0131 atarak adam\u0131n \u00fczerine atlad\u0131lar.\n\u0130kisini de s\u0131rayla kucaklay\u0131p \u00f6pen adam\u0131 kaskat\u0131 seyretti Berna. G\u00f6zlerinden\nbir damla ya\u015f akt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Baba m\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O\u011flanlar\u0131\neve geri g\u00f6nderen adam yan\u0131na yakla\u015f\u0131p g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sildi. Onun kendisine\ndokunmas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 bile koymadan \u00f6ylece bakarken, uykuda oldu\u011funu\u2026 Hay\u0131r, bir k\u00e2busta\noldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cGel\nprenses, eve gidelim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Duydu\u011fu\nc\u00fcmleyle bir anda silkinip kendine gelerek i\u00e7inin b\u00fct\u00fcn nefretini g\u00f6zlerine\ntoplad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen prenses\nde\u011filim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kad\u0131ndaki\nde\u011fi\u015fim can\u0131n\u0131 yakm\u0131\u015f gibi ac\u0131yla ta\u015ft\u0131 bir an adam. Sonra yumu\u015fac\u0131k bir\ng\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ve ipeksi bir sesle, \u201cSen her zaman prensestin bebe\u011fim. Sadece masal\u0131n\u0131\ncanavarlar istila etmi\u015fti,\u201d dedi\u011finde bocalayan Berna, bo\u015f bulunup adam\u0131n\nuzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 eli tuttu. Sonra da b\u0131rakmak gelmedi i\u00e7inden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tanr\u0131m\nk\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir k\u0131z gibi hissediyordu kendisini. Nereye kaybolmu\u015ftu o asan, kesen,\nmahkeme salonunda kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakileri titreten Berna? Neden elini bu adam\u0131n\nelinden \u00e7ekemiyordu? Neden kendisini g\u00fcvende hissediyordu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir an\ndeh\u015fete kap\u0131larak h\u0131zla elini kurtard\u0131 adamdan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Biraz \u00f6nce\nseyretti\u011fi evin bah\u00e7esine girdiler. Adam\u0131n eve y\u00f6nelmesini umursamayarak\nbah\u00e7edeki oturma gruplar\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc ve onun yan\u0131na gelmesini bekledi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bo\u011faz\u0131na\noturan yumruyu ge\u00e7irmek \u00e7ok zordu. Buraya alkolden yitip gitmi\u015f, d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn bir\nadamla konu\u015fmaya gelmi\u015fti. Oysa buldu\u011fu, sevgi dolu bir ailesi olan mutlu bir\nadamd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131\nbah\u00e7edeki \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 eve sokarken, kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki k\u0131rk ya\u015flar\u0131ndaki kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\nucuyla izledi. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n annesi olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131n kar\u0131s\u0131. Kendi ailesini\nbir kalemde darmada\u011f\u0131n etmi\u015fken burada yeni bir aile mi kurmu\u015ftu kendisine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k,\nyetersizlik, \u00f6fke parampar\u00e7a etti y\u00fcre\u011fini. \u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n getirdi\u011fi bocalamay\u0131\natlatt\u0131ktan sonra \u015fimdi eski Berna idi. Peri masallar\u0131ndan \u00e7oktan vazge\u00e7en\nBerna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yan\u0131na\noturan babas\u0131na \u201cNezaket konu\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 bir kenara b\u0131rak\u0131rsak sevinirim,\u201d dedi. \u201cSadece\nannemi ve beni hayat\u0131ndan neden att\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek istiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu kez\n\u015fa\u015f\u0131rma s\u0131ras\u0131 babas\u0131ndayd\u0131. Adam \u00f6nce cevap verecek gibi oldu, sonra sustu ve\nbir s\u00fcre d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAbimin sana\ns\u00f6yledi\u011fini sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bilmedi\u011finden haberim yoktu.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNeyi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131n\u0131n\nsuskunlu\u011fu i\u00e7inde sab\u0131rs\u0131z bir h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa sebep oluyordu. Adam\u0131n yakas\u0131na\nyap\u0131\u015f\u0131p konu\u015funcaya kadar onu sarsmak istiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAskerden\nd\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, abim beni yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u2018Bizimle kal\u0131r, i\u015f bulursun,\u2019 demi\u015fti.\nBuldum da. Bu arada da kom\u015fular\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131na \u00e7arp\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Annendi. Hep bizim\nevdeydi. Yengem de abim de ona evin bireyi gibi davran\u0131rlard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Abim\nevlenmemiz i\u00e7in arac\u0131 oldu ve ben d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en mutlu adam\u0131 oldum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Uza\u011fa\ngitmedik, abim bize kendi yanlar\u0131ndaki evi tuttu. Hemen ard\u0131ndan da sen d\u00fcnyaya\ngeldin ve mutlulu\u011fum katlanarak \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sen okula\nba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131 san\u0131r\u0131m, kahvede bir konu\u015fma \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131ma. \u00dczerinde bile\ndurmazd\u0131m. Ama konu\u015fan adam beni tuvaletten \u00e7\u0131karken g\u00f6r\u00fcnce panikleyip k\u00fcf\u00fcr\netti. Eve geldikten sonra da duyduklar\u0131m tak\u0131ld\u0131 akl\u0131ma. Bulanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bir kere\ny\u00fcre\u011fim.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNe duydun?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cMetresini\nde pi\u00e7ini de karde\u015fine yamad\u0131, \u015fimdi yan evinde keyfini s\u00fcr\u00fcyor,\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n\ndibine kadar deh\u015fetle sars\u0131ld\u0131 Berna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cDo\u011fru\nolamaz bu.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sesinin\n\u00e7\u0131k\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmiyordu ama i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7en buydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen de\nb\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Do\u011fru olamazd\u0131. Abim beni annenle ili\u015fkisini rahat\u00e7a\ns\u00fcrd\u00fcrebilmek i\u00e7in onunla evlendirmi\u015f olamazd\u0131. Bunca sene her \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda\nard\u0131mdan eve girip kar\u0131mla \u00e2lem yapm\u0131\u015f olamazd\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHay\u0131r,\ndo\u011fru olamaz. Annem bu kadar i\u011fren\u00e7 bir \u015fey yapm\u0131\u015f olamaz. Baba, a\u011fz\u0131ndan\n\u00e7\u0131kan\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131n duyuyor mu?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn\n\u00f6n\u00fcne gelen g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler bir anda karabasan gibi \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc \u00fczerine gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n.\nAmcas\u0131n\u0131n durmadan eve geli\u015fi, kendisinin s\u0131k s\u0131k uyku saati diye odas\u0131na\ng\u00f6nderili\u015fi, amcas\u0131n\u0131n sevgi dolu oldu\u011funu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 dokunu\u015flar\u0131na annesinin\ng\u00fcl\u00fcmseyi\u015fi, uykudan kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda annesinin her zaman darmada\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00d6n\u00fcne bakan\nadam, hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmadan oturdu bir s\u00fcre. G\u00f6zleri kederli ama a\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Berna\u2019da ise\ndeh\u015fetten ba\u015fka bir \u015fey yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Midesi\nbuland\u0131. Kusmak istiyordu. \u0130\u00e7indeki pisli\u011fi bedeninde bar\u0131nd\u0131rmas\u0131 imk\u00e2ns\u0131zd\u0131.\nKusmal\u0131 ve duyduklar\u0131n\u0131 unutmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yerinden\nf\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi bah\u00e7enin kenar\u0131na gidip i\u00e7inde ne varsa hepsini d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\nYan\u0131na gelip kendisine destek olan babas\u0131n\u0131n eline can simidi gibi yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2018Metresini\nde pi\u00e7ini de\u2026\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSen\u2026 Sen\nbenim babam de\u011fil misin?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki\nyana sallad\u0131 adam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Oh Tanr\u0131m.\nY\u0131llard\u0131r hayat\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerine kurdu\u011fu her \u015fey bir bir y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yordu. Ac\u0131lar\u0131,\nkorkular\u0131, g\u00fcvensizlikleri\u2026 Hepsi y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131p Berna\u2019y\u0131 bombo\u015f b\u0131rak\u0131yordu. \u00d6yle bir\nbo\u015fluk ki, ac\u0131ya bile raz\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131yordu insan\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen bunu\nnas\u0131l hazmederim? Ben bununla ya\u015famaya nas\u0131l devam ederim?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Adam s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131\nsar\u0131ld\u0131 gen\u00e7 kad\u0131na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAtlatacaks\u0131n\nprensesim. \u00dcz\u00fclme. Ben senin yan\u0131nda olurum. Ben b\u0131rakmam seni. Baban olmasam\nda amcan\u0131m ve seni her zaman \u00e7ok sevdim. Hi\u00e7 vazge\u00e7medim sevmekten.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kendisine\nsar\u0131lan kollara teslim olup i\u00e7indeki b\u00fct\u00fcn ac\u0131y\u0131 a\u011flad\u0131 Berna. Zehir gibi\ny\u00fcre\u011fini siyaha bulayan b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7irkinlikler adam\u0131n sar\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131yla topra\u011fa kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p\ngitti sanki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Evdeki\nkad\u0131n\u0131n ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n merakla yanlar\u0131na geldi\u011fini, adam\u0131n onlara g\u00f6zleriyle\nuzakla\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti\u011fini g\u00f6rmedi. A\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp yan\u0131na\noturttu\u011funu, sar\u0131l\u0131p bir bebek gibi sallay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmedi. Kula\u011f\u0131na \u2018Bebe\u011fim,\nbir tanem, prensesim, \u00f6zledi\u011fim\u2019 dedi\u011fini duymad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra, \u00e7ok\nsonra i\u00e7i tamamen ar\u0131nd\u0131 sanki. Adam\u0131n f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131na ula\u015ft\u0131,\nsakinle\u015ftirdi onu. Dokunu\u015flar\u0131ndan y\u00fcre\u011fine akan sevgiyi koklad\u0131, \u0131s\u0131nd\u0131. Kendini\ng\u00fcvende hissetti. Sevgisini kaybetti\u011finde b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131n\u0131 demirden bir yumruk gibi\nda\u011f\u0131tan bu adam, onu hep sevmi\u015fti. Hep. Ve bu, sadece bu, bir ila\u00e7 gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSeni \u00e7ok\nseviyorum baba,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen de seni\n\u00e7ok seviyorum prensesim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerini kurulay\u0131p\nbiraz toparlanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYa annem?\nOna ne oldu?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOnunla \u00f6nce\ny\u00fczle\u015ftim, ink\u00e2r etti. Sonra g\u00f6zlerimle g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, kovdum evden. \u0130\u00e7kiyle\nunutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, olmad\u0131, Arada senin g\u00f6zlerini g\u00f6r\u00fcp kahrolmaktan eve gelemez\noldum. Sonra duydum, abim seni \u0130stanbul\u2019a okula yazd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Sonra da annenin\n\u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc duydum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131\nd\u00fcnyay\u0131 bir kez daha saklad\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinden. O y\u00fczden mi gelmemi\u015fti annesi onu\nalmaya? Yoksa ya\u015fasa da gelmez miydi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bunun can\u0131n\u0131\nac\u0131tmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etti. Onun can\u0131 sadece yan\u0131ndaki adam\u0131n kollar\u0131ndan\nuzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kendisini ger\u00e7ekten seven tek insan\u0131n o oldu\u011funu\ngaliba hep anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ne annesi, ne amca diye bildi\u011fi babas\u0131\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBenim babam\nsensin.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBenim,\nprensesim. Sen yeter ki beni iste, ben senin i\u00e7in \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcm.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBaba?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck,\n\u015fa\u015fk\u0131n bir ses duyup ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131 Berna. O\u011flanlar\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gelmi\u015f, babas\u0131n\u0131n\nkuca\u011f\u0131na oturmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cGel bakal\u0131m\naslan\u0131m. Ablanla tan\u0131\u015fmak ister misin? Bak bu senin ablan Berna. Bu da C\u00fcneyt, ablas\u0131\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ocu\u011fun\nyana\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sevgiyle ok\u015fad\u0131 Berna. \u201cMerhaba C\u00fcneyt. Senin gibi tatl\u0131 bir karde\u015fim\noldu\u011fu i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u015fansl\u0131y\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Utanarak\ny\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc saklad\u0131 C\u00fcneyt, sonra tekrar merakla a\u00e7\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cGel prenses, eve gidelim. Orada seni \u00e7ok merak eden iki ki\u015fi daha var.\u201d Babas\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek kalkt\u0131 Berna. G\u00f6zlerini kurulad\u0131. 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