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O g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131nda sanki ilk defa hissetti\u011fini\nsanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama\u2026 Art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir \u015feyden emin olam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOkudu\u011fum o kitapta diyordu ki beyin bedenin\nanahtar\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. Ve sen neye inan\u0131rsan, beyin de ona inan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Bu da demek oluyor\nki, bedeninin anahtar\u0131 sensin.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Naz Alp\u2019e inan\u0131yordu. Bu say\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cKapat g\u00f6zlerini ve sana ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\nbakal\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Karanl\u0131k. Olsun, Alp yan\u0131nda nas\u0131l olsa. O y\u00fczden bu\nsadece bir karanl\u0131k. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nefesi yakla\u015f\u0131yor\u2026 yakla\u015f\u0131yor\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n oldu\u011fu yerde nefes sesi. O zaman\u2026 \u00d6p\u00fcyor\nmu? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Evet evet. \u00d6p\u00fcyor Alp! Burnunu s\u00fcrt\u00fcyor kendisininkine. Nefesi\n\u00fcst duda\u011f\u0131n hemen \u00fczerinde. Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na al\u0131yor onu. Islat\u0131yor diliyle.\nBoydan boya. Di\u015fler\u2026 Is\u0131r\u0131yor! \u00c7ok g\u00fczel! \u00c7ok! Bu duyguyu bir daha\nya\u015fayabilece\u011fini hi\u00e7 sanmazken\u2026 \u00c7ok g\u00fczel! O h\u0131zlanan nefes kimin? Kendisinin\nmi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cA\u00e7 g\u00f6zlerini.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hay\u0131r. A\u00e7mak istemiyor ki. Alp onu biraz daha \u00f6ps\u00fcn\nistiyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r\nk\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBunlar\u0131n hepsini hissettin mi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cG\u00fczel miydi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cA\u015fk\u0131m\u2026 \u00c7ok \u00e7apk\u0131n bir beynin oldu\u011funu kabul et.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYerimden k\u0131p\u0131rdamad\u0131m ben. Hepsini hayal ettin.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131sa bir an duraklaman\u0131n ard\u0131ndan bir g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 damlas\u0131 gri-mavilerden\nkopup d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce tela\u015fland\u0131 Alp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHey! Neden \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcn ki \u015fimdi? Hey!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>E\u011filip o dudaklar\u0131 tam da Naz\u2019\u0131n anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi \u00f6pt\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cA\u015fk\u0131m\u2026 Anlam\u0131yor musun? Beynin hat\u0131rl\u0131yor. Onu\nkand\u0131rd\u0131n. Onu \u00f6p\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne inand\u0131rd\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSen inanacaks\u0131n, o zaman beynin de inanacak. Anlad\u0131n\nm\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOna, ben sana dokundu\u011fumda hissetmeyi yeniden\n\u00f6\u011fretece\u011fiz. Tamam m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNas\u0131l da s\u00f6z dinlermi\u015f benim a\u015fk\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00d6d\u00fcl\u00fc de arka arkaya dudaklar\u0131na kondurulan \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fckler\noldu. \u00d6yle uzun sustular ki, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri birbirine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131, dokunu\u015flar\nyo\u011funla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNaz.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBebeklerimizi istiyor musun?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bekledi adam ama g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131 titre\u015fmedi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cCevap vermek mi istemiyorsun, cevab\u0131 m\u0131 bilmiyorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cA, ama sen her s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda a\u011flayarak m\u0131 kurtulacaks\u0131n\nbenden?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen de \u00e7ok korkuyorum. Birlikte korkal\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBence herkes ilk ba\u015fta b\u00f6yle korkuyordur.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAmeliyat s\u0131ras\u0131nda kullan\u0131lan ila\u00e7lar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden mi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cDoktor dedi ki, e\u011fer sorun olsaym\u0131\u015f zaten en ba\u015fta\nd\u00fc\u015ferlermi\u015f. \u015eu anda onlar\u0131n engelli olma ihtimali herhangi bir bebe\u011finki\nkadarm\u0131\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cTamam. Ben sadece sordum. Asla zorlamam seni.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cEvet isterdim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u0130\u00e7inde senin yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir ailem olurdu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBabanla konu\u015ftuk bunu. E\u011fer sen kabul edersen bize\ndestek verecek.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cEvet, bug\u00fcn s\u00f6yledi. Ama bence d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini\nkendisinden duy. Ben tarafl\u0131 olabilirim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBir tek \u015feyi y\u00fcre\u011fine, beynine, bedenine iyice i\u015fle\nNaz. Seni seviyorum. Sen kendini ne \u015fekilde iyi hissedeceksen \u00f6yle olsun\nistiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen olsam bana uysal demezdim. Maymun ettin beni\nkendine.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cPars oldu\u011fum g\u00fcnler eskidendi a\u015fk\u0131m. Havuzda diktin\ng\u00f6zlerini \u00fczerime, \u00f6nce kedi oldum sonra maymun.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131rp\u0131rp\u0131rp\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u015e\u0131mar\u0131k.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra da \u00f6pt\u00fc Naz\u2019\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fck sesinin ard\u0131ndan, k\u0131nayan bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 Alp\u2019e dikilmi\u015f\nS\u00fcreyya Ural dikkati \u00fczerine \u00e7ekti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNas\u0131ls\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131m? Rahat m\u0131s\u0131n odanda?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerini tek bir kere k\u0131rp\u0131nca bunun onaylamak oldu\u011funu\nbiliyordu S\u00fcreyya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cKalabal\u0131ksa bo\u015faltay\u0131m. \u0130ster misin?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i g\u00fcld\u00fc prensesinin. Kuca\u011f\u0131na z\u0131play\u0131p\nbacaklar\u0131n\u0131 da beline dolay\u0131p kollar\u0131yla s\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131ndan nefesini keserken\nbinlerce \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fck kondursa g\u00f6r\u00fcnece\u011fi gibiydi bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBiraz konu\u015fal\u0131m m\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Konuyu tahmin etti\u011fi, Alp\u2019in Naz\u2019\u0131n yan\u0131ndan kalk\u0131p\nkendi yan\u0131na gelmesinden belliydi. \u00d6nemli durumlarda, herkesin tepkisini\ng\u00f6rebilmesi i\u00e7in Naz\u2019\u0131n bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 noktaya topluyordu Alp odadakileri. \u0130\u015fte \u015fimdi\nde, yata\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131na oturmu\u015ftu S\u00fcreyya, Alp de yan\u0131nda ayaktayd\u0131. D\u00fc\u011fmelerle\noynayarak Naz\u2019\u0131 biraz daha oturma konumuna getirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBebeklerle ilgili bir karar verme zaman\u0131n yakla\u015f\u0131yor,\nbiliyorsun.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Solmu\u015f muydu k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n rengi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cRahim tahliyesi yap\u0131lacaksa, bunu doktoruna s\u00f6ylememiz\ngerekiyor.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Alp de p\u00fcr dikkat Naz\u2019\u0131 seyrediyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cE\u011fer sen\u2026 onlar\u0131\u2026 onlar\u0131 do\u011furmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrsen\u2026 sonuna\nkadar yan\u0131nda olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmeni istiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir kere bile k\u0131rpmad\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini Naz. Hatta nefes\nalmad\u0131. G\u00f6zlerini babas\u0131ndan hi\u00e7 ay\u0131rmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBa\u015fta, tek ba\u015f\u0131ma onlara bakabilece\u011fimden emin\nde\u011fildim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Huzursuz oldu\u011fu \u00f6yle anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131yordu ki, Alp elini uzat\u0131p\nadam\u0131n omzunu tuttu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAma \u015fimdi\u2026 biz Alp ile konu\u015ftuk.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u00fcreyya bu deste\u011fe minnettard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOnlar\u0131n bak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 ikimiz rahatl\u0131kla sa\u011flayabiliriz diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Parlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Naz\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zleri parlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cReha da art\u0131k bizimle \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor biliyorsun. O ve Alp\nfabrikadaki i\u015fleri \u00f6\u011frenip y\u00fck\u00fc \u00fczerimden al\u0131rlarsa, seninle daha fazla zaman\nge\u00e7irebilirim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Soru i\u015faretleri\u2026 i\u015faretleri\u2026 i\u015faretleri\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAlp de ilk kattaki odalardan birine yerle\u015firse\u2026\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eok?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u0130\u015f d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki saatlerde seninle ve bebeklerle olabilir.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eimdi bay\u0131lacakt\u0131 herhalde Naz. Rengi ger\u00e7ek anlamda\nbeyaza d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNaz?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Alp\u2019in tedirgin sesi Naz\u2019\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ona \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u0130yi misin a\u015fk\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130yi miydi? \u015eu anda Naz\u2019\u0131n \u00e7ok mutlu olmas\u0131 gerekmiyor\nmuydu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u0130stersen sen biraz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, akl\u0131na tak\u0131lan bir \u015fey olursa\nikimizle de konu\u015f, sonra da karar\u0131n neyse, ona g\u00f6re ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bi\u00e7imlendirelim.\nOlur mu k\u0131z\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ses seda \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131 Naz\u2019dan. Ne evet, ne hay\u0131r. Alp\u2019in\ntedirginli\u011fini de tam arkas\u0131nda olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen hissedebildi S\u00fcreyya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHadi bakal\u0131m, bir \u015fey gerekirse yukar\u0131day\u0131m ben.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve tam anlam\u0131yla ka\u00e7arak uzakla\u015ft\u0131 adam. D\u0131\u015far\u0131\n\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, i\u00e7eride ne oldu\u011funu bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc anlayamam\u0131\u015f olman\u0131n verdi\u011fi\nhuzursuzlukla bir s\u00fcre merdivenlerin ba\u015f\u0131nda bekledi. Birka\u00e7 basamak hen\u00fcz\n\u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki Alp pe\u015finden geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNe oldu i\u00e7eride, sen anlad\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Surat\u0131 kararm\u0131\u015f o\u011flan\u0131n da bir \u015fey anlam\u0131\u015f gibi bir hali\nyoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSen neden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131n peki?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYaln\u0131z kalmak istedi.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Eyvah. Yan\u0131ndan h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla ge\u00e7ip yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kan adam\u0131n\narkas\u0131ndan \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle bakt\u0131 S\u00fcreyya. Bir \u015fey ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yorlard\u0131. O \u015fey ne ise, ikisi\nde g\u00f6remiyorlard\u0131. Geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Naz\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zleri kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Ama yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a\ng\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 belirginle\u015fti<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNaz.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 g\u00f6zler. Damlalar birbiri ard\u0131na d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc\ng\u00f6zlerinden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSorun ne Naz?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBekle.\u201d Cebinden ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p d\u00fczeltti, \u201cTek tek\u2026 Ben\nsizin gibi \u00e7abuk anlayam\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cO bunu g\u00f6ze ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor Naz.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHer ili\u015fkide b\u00f6yle bir risk vard\u0131r k\u0131z\u0131m. Ki\u2026 Sizinki\nnas\u0131l bir ili\u015fki ben bunu da \u00e7ok anlam\u0131\u015f de\u011filim ama Alp o kadar kendinden emin\nki, bana sanki zaten bundan ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fcs\u00fc olamazm\u0131\u015f gibi hissettiriyor.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNaz\u2026 Biraz yava\u015f k\u0131z\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAnl\u0131yorum da\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131r da k\u0131p\u0131r. K\u0131p\u0131r da p\u0131r. Hatta k\u0131p\u0131rp\u0131rp\u0131r. \u00dcstelik\nk\u0131p\u0131r\u0131kp\u0131kp\u0131k yani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u00fcreyya yorulmu\u015f, ama tek bir harfi ka\u00e7\u0131rmadan Naz\u2019\u0131\nanlamay\u0131 ba\u015farm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Art\u0131k k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da bakm\u0131yordu. Zaten deh\u015fet i\u00e7inde Naz\u2019a\nbakmaktan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey elinden gelmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBunu kabul etmez.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>P\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cTamam, ben s\u00f6ylerim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve Naz g\u00f6zlerini kapatt\u0131. S\u00fcreyya yata\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131\nindirdi, \u00e7ekinerek k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 aln\u0131ndan \u00f6pt\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSen m\u00fckemmel bir kad\u0131ns\u0131n. Ne zaman bu kadar b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcn?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve ard\u0131ndan odadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tam on be\u015f dakika sonra, Alp Kalayc\u0131 kap\u0131lar\u0131 \u00e7arparak\nUrallar\u0131n villas\u0131n\u0131 terk etti. Sesler alt kata ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, Naz\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zleri\na\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, bir s\u00fcre hen\u00fcz g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc olmay\u0131 ba\u015faramam\u0131\u015f sevimsiz tavana bakt\u0131, sonra\nkaranl\u0131k bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa yeniden kapand\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>***<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tesisin biraz uza\u011f\u0131nda, bir a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na park etmi\u015f\narabada oturan adam g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerini elindeki dosyayla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu. Her yer o\nkadar ye\u015fildi ki, bir s\u00fcre burada dinlenmek, tedaviyi bu ortamda\nger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmek ona \u00e7ok iyi gelecekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elindeki d\u00fcrb\u00fcnle etraf\u0131 santim santim inceledi. Kap\u0131dan\ni\u00e7eri girildi\u011fi andan itibaren asfalt\u0131n yerini \u00e7im ve toprak al\u0131yordu. Be\u015f y\u00fcz\nd\u00f6n\u00fcml\u00fck arazide \u015fehirden \u00e7ok orman iklimi h\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Ko\u015fan atlar,\niplerinden tutan insanlar, y\u00fcr\u00fcyenler, \u00e7itlere dayanm\u0131\u015f seyirciler, atlara ait\nya\u015fam alanlar\u0131 olduk\u00e7a iyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclerek tasarlanm\u0131\u015f bu tesiste bamba\u015fka bir\nd\u00fcnyada ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 hissini veriyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6rebildi\u011fi yap\u0131lar\u0131n t\u00fcm\u00fc sarma\u015f\u0131klarla do\u011fal ortama\nentegre edilmi\u015fti. D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bakan kimse, atlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bir ya\u015fam\u0131n burada\nh\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcrmekte oldu\u011funu tahmin edemezdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yeniden dosyaya yo\u011funla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026bla bla ebatlar\u0131nda kapal\u0131 manej, a\u00e7\u0131k manej\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026bla bla &nbsp;yumu\u015fatma sahas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026bla bla \u00e7im padok\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026kulvar\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026a\u00e7\u0131k ve kapal\u0131 lonj tesisleri\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026klinik hm buras\u0131 m\u0131 olacakt\u0131 acaba tedavinin yap\u0131laca\u011f\u0131\nyer? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026laboratuvar <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026nalbanthane <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026y\u00fcr\u00fcme makinas\u0131 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026kum pist, \u00e7im pist <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026kafeterya, restaurant <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026seminer, toplant\u0131, projeksiyon odas\u0131 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Pony Club sevsinler ponylerini. Kendi kul\u00fcb\u00fc yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\nHer \u015feyi yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Lanet olsun. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Butik <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Soyunma odalar\u0131 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026\u015e\u00f6mine k\u00f6\u015fesi <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Cafe, vitamin bar<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00fcrb\u00fcne g\u00f6zlerini dayay\u0131p okuduklar\u0131na benzeyen yap\u0131lar\u0131\ndola\u015f\u0131rken at\u0131n \u00fczerindeki bir fig\u00fcre tak\u0131ld\u0131 g\u00f6zleri. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6remiyordu ama diri,\ntaze beden g\u00f6zlerini ok\u015fuyordu. Padoktaki di\u011fer fig\u00fcrlere bakt\u0131. Atkuyru\u011fu\nyap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u2026 K\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f yanaklar\u2026 Ellerde eldivenler\u2026 Pek sosyaldi can\u0131m\nburas\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Madem bir s\u00fcre burada kalacakt\u0131\u2026 K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u015fi\u015fe \u00e7ilek\n\u015furubu getirmesinde bir sak\u0131nca yoktu. Bir de minik makinesini. \u0130nsan\u0131n ne\nzaman g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc almak isteyece\u011fi belli olmazd\u0131. Bir at\u0131n \u00fczerinde mesela. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130lk seferini at\u0131n \u00fczerinde ya\u015famak av\u0131na ne\nhissettirirdi acaba? Dizginleri tutan ellerinin aras\u0131nda, at\u0131n \u00fczerinde \u00f6zel\nolarak tasarlanm\u0131\u015f bir eyere ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f, &nbsp;bacaklar\u0131 beline dolanm\u0131\u015f\u2026 hem kendisinden,\nhem de d\u00fc\u015fmekten korkarak\u2026 Of! Bunu neden hi\u00e7 denememi\u015fti ki? 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