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Sinan\nhayat\u0131ndan \u00e7ekilmi\u015fti ve Elif devam etmeye haz\u0131rd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hayat\u0131nda birka\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr bir \u0131ss\u0131zl\u0131k\nh\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu ama bu sadece Sinan\u2019\u0131n yoklu\u011fundan kaynaklanm\u0131yordu. Ceren ve\nZeynep\u2019le de g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015femez olmu\u015ftu. Ya ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 ya birlikte bir anda ortadan\nkayboluveriyorlard\u0131. Elif de tek ba\u015f\u0131na bara ya da ba\u015fka bir yere gitmek\nistemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ak\u015famlar\u0131 evi \u00e7ok bo\u015ftu. Her yerinde\nSinan\u2019\u0131n hayaleti vard\u0131. \u00d6nceki ve art\u0131k daha da \u00e7ok, sonraki Sinan\u2019\u0131n&#8230;\nMutfak ve banyo \u00f6ncekine aitti, salon ve yatak odas\u0131 sonrakine. Ve koridor\nikisine aitti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eaka gibiydi sanki. Ayn\u0131 \u015feyler\nya\u015fanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ikisiyle de. Elif ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, Onlar kovalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130kisi de onun\nduvarlar\u0131na sald\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, ikisi de bunun i\u00e7in cinselli\u011fi kullanm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. \u0130kisi de\nElif\u2019i mutlu etmi\u015f ama o ikisinden de korkmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Sen onlar\u0131 mutlu\nettin mi?\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bilmiyordu. Sonrakini etmedi\u011fi a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\nda, \u00f6nceki Sinan\u2019\u0131 da son sabah neden \u00f6yle gitmi\u015fti ki? Elif\u2019e en \u00e7ok bu\ndokunuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Ona ait oldu\u011funa\ninanmad\u0131 hi\u00e7. Hep korkuttun. Kendi korkunu yans\u0131tt\u0131n. \u0130kisine de.\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Onlar bana ait olmayacaklard\u0131.\nOlmazlard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Onlar seni sevdi ama\nsen bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc sevemedin kendini de\u011fil mi?\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hay\u0131r, Elif kendisini seviyordu.\nSa\u00e7mayd\u0131 bu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Sevmiyorsun. Sen\nsevmedi\u011fin i\u00e7in de onlar\u0131n seni sevebileceklerine hi\u00e7 inanmad\u0131n.\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ayaklar\u0131 onu aynan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde,\norada g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kumral uzun sa\u00e7l\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 yukar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fc. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kadar\ns\u0131radan m\u0131yd\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten? G\u00f6zlerine bakt\u0131. Mahzun, k\u0131r\u0131k, \u015fehla&#8230; Sinan en \u00e7ok\ng\u00f6zlerini severdi. \u2018Yanl\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zler\u2019. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00dczerindeki e\u015fofman\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak\nkald\u0131. Sinan\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zleriyle bakmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. D\u00fczg\u00fcnd\u00fc sonu\u00e7ta. Muhte\u015fem de\u011fildi\nbelki ama d\u00fczg\u00fcnd\u00fc. G\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri Sinan\u2019\u0131n avucuna s\u0131\u011facak b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fckteydi. Dikti.\nDo\u011fru k\u0131yafetle erkekleri kendisine bakt\u0131rabilecek g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerdi. Sadece Elif g\u00f6r\u00fcnmelerini\nistemezdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yan d\u00f6n\u00fcp kal\u00e7alar\u0131na bakt\u0131. D\u00fczg\u00fcn bir\nkal\u00e7ayd\u0131 i\u015fte. G\u00fczeli nas\u0131l olur bilmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in kendisi i\u00e7in sadece bir\nkal\u00e7ayd\u0131 onlar. Ama blucinleri \u00e7ok g\u00fczel ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdi. Bacak boyu uzundu\nbir kere. Bu y\u00fczden b\u00fct\u00fcn pantolonlar yak\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ona.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00d6n\u00fcne d\u00f6n\u00fcp bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 inceledi. Topuklu\nayakkab\u0131yla nas\u0131l olurdu acaba? Herhangi bir b\u00f6lgesi kal\u0131n falan de\u011fildi. Bir\ng\u00fcn denemeliydi. \u00c7orap reklam\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 gerekmedi\u011fine g\u00f6re, iki bacakt\u0131 i\u015fte.\n\u00dczerinde y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye yarard\u0131. Bir de Sinan\u2019\u0131n beline dolanmaya. Bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n\naras\u0131ndaki s\u0131zlama bir anda akl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na toplamas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini hat\u0131rlatt\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bo\u015f bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 aynadaki aksine uzun bir\ns\u00fcre dikili kald\u0131. \u0130nsanlardan o kadar saklanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki, art\u0131k kendisine de\nkaybolmu\u015ftu. Bir listesi yoktu mesela. Her \u015feyin listesi varken, bedeninin\nyoktu. Onu komple reddetmi\u015fti. Bu y\u00fczden de bedeniyle bar\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 becerememi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Aptals\u0131n sen.\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>E\u015fofman\u0131n\u0131 giyip salona ge\u00e7ti. Hafif\nm\u00fczik, lo\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131k, yapayaln\u0131z bir Elif&#8230; Hayat\u0131n\u0131n sonuna kadar ak\u015famlar\u0131 evde\nsadece bu kadar\u0131n\u0131 bulabilece\u011fini biliyordu art\u0131k. Sinan\u2019\u0131 bile bezdirmi\u015fti\nsonu\u00e7ta. Ne elde etmek istemi\u015fti ki onu hayat\u0131ndan ka\u00e7\u0131rarak? Neden bir \u015fans\nvermemi\u015fti?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir g\u00fcn giderse\u2026 Tamam, ama gidene kadar\nya\u015fanabilecek \u015feyleri bir kalemde silip atm\u0131\u015f olmuyor muydu bu \u015fekilde? Garanti\nmi istiyordu. Neyin garantisi olabilirdi ki? Sevginin yoktu, ya\u015faman\u0131n yoktu,\nmutlulu\u011fun yoktu. Mutluluk, kaybedene kadar arada harcanan \u00e7abadayd\u0131. Daha da\n\u00f6tesinde, korkmamaktayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018\u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden\nkaybettin.\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\u2019\u0131 kaybetmi\u015fti. Bir kez daha&#8230;\nBununla y\u00fczle\u015fmek can\u0131n\u0131 o kadar ac\u0131tt\u0131 ki, gecenin devam\u0131nda g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 ona\narkada\u015fl\u0131k etti. Sabah kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kayb\u0131n\u0131 kabullenme ve ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrme\ng\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc kendinde bulabilmek i\u00e7in d\u00f6rt bardak kahve i\u00e7mesi gerekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>***<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hatal\u0131yd\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonraki g\u00fcnlerde Elif\u2019in d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini\nhep bu kelime doldurdu. Ceren ve Zeynep\u2019le birlikte zaman ge\u00e7irememek\nkendisinden ka\u00e7mas\u0131na engel oldu\u011fundan, gece boyu i\u00e7 hesapla\u015fma yapmaktan ba\u015fka\n\u00e7aresi kalm\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan yoktu. Hi\u00e7bir yerde. Ne ad\u0131\nge\u00e7iyor, ne kendisi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Art\u0131k onu \u00f6zledi\u011fini itiraf ederken, \u00f6nceki ya\nda sonraki diye ay\u0131rmaktan vazge\u00e7mi\u015fti. \u0130kisini de \u00f6zl\u00fcyordu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ikisi de\nonun Sinan\u2019\u0131 olmu\u015ftu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Asl\u0131nda onun bu kadar \u00e7abuk pes etmesi\npek de mant\u0131kl\u0131 gelmiyordu. Sinan t\u00fcm s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 zorlamay\u0131 seven bir erkekti.\nOnu vaz ge\u00e7iren Elif\u2019in yap\u0131c\u0131 hi\u00e7bir davran\u0131\u015fta bulunmamas\u0131 olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Yokmu\u015f\ngibi davranmas\u0131. Kendisini ili\u015fkiye katmamas\u0131&#8230; Bu y\u00fczden kimseyi su\u00e7layamazd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hatal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>***<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Be\u015finci g\u00fcnde Elif art\u0131k Ceren ve\nZeynep\u2019le ilgili bir sorun oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Zeynep durmadan kuzeni\nSevda ile bir program yapm\u0131\u015f oluyordu ve bunda gariplik yoktu ama Ceren sanki\nyalan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu. D\u00fcnk\u00fc konu\u015fmalar\u0131nda bir arkada\u015f\u0131yla bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015f\nolmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen onun da Zeynep ve Sevda ile birlikte oldu\u011funu anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bunu\nsorgulay\u0131p ili\u015fkilerini zedelemek istemedi ama k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bundan sonra\nCeren\u2019den bir a\u00e7\u0131klama al\u0131p da kafas\u0131ndaki soru i\u015fareti \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclene kadar Elif\u2019in\nduvar\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ak\u015fam, hayat\u0131n\u0131 normal bir \u015fekilde\ns\u00fcrd\u00fcrmekte ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131z oldu\u011funu kendisine itiraf etti\u011finde, y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131yla\ns\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klamd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131yordu. Y\u00fcre\u011fi a\u011fr\u0131yordu. Ruhu a\u011fr\u0131yordu. Sinan\u2019\u0131n\n\u00f6zlemiyle bedeni a\u011fr\u0131yordu. Onu i\u00e7inde hissetmeyi \u00f6zlemi\u015fti. Kazadan sonra hi\u00e7 girmemi\u015fti\nonun i\u00e7ine. Bunun ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u015fimdi daha fazla hissediyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu gece bitmeyecekti. Belki biraz\n\u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa ruh hali de\u011fi\u015febilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yeni \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131klar\u0131 bir \u015firkete\nait kampanya notlar\u0131n\u0131 internetten indirmek i\u00e7in \u015fifreye ihtiyac\u0131 oldu\u011funda\nCeren\u2019i arad\u0131. Olduk\u00e7a g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc bir ortamda olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Yanl\u0131\u015f bir zamanda\naram\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu duygusu i\u00e7ine \u00e7\u00f6reklendi. K\u0131z\u0131n sesi tedirgindi. Kendisini\nduyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7ok g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyip duruyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birden bir ses duydu arka plandan.\n\u201cSevda\u2019y\u0131 kul\u00fcbe ben g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorum, arabaya ba\u015fka kimseyi almaya niyetim yok. Siz\nkendinize taksi tutun.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAma ayn\u0131 yere gidiyoruz\u201d diye s\u00f6ylenen\nZeynep, sonra uzakla\u015fan konu\u015fmalar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ceren\u2019in \u201cElif, duyuyor musun beni?\u201d dedi\u011fini\nduydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zeynep, Ceren, Sinan ve Sevda? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan ve Sevda? Zeynep\u2019in kuzeni Sevda? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sevda\u2019y\u0131 kul\u00fcbe Sinan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyor ve\narabada di\u011ferlerini istemiyor. Oysa ayn\u0131 yere gidiliyor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sevda ve Sinan ayn\u0131 arabada gidiyor,\nSinan arabaya ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 istemiyor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Telefon elinden d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, aya\u011fa kalk\u0131p\nbanyoya gitti. Y\u00fcz\u00fcne su \u00e7arp\u0131p nefes almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yoktu nefesi, alam\u0131yordu.\nT\u0131kand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan arabaya ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 istemiyor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nefes almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ci\u011ferleri ac\u0131d\u0131,\nnefes almal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ceren \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc dolu g\u00f6zlerini Sinan\u2019a\ndikti. Telefonun sesini hoparl\u00f6re alm\u0131\u015f, Elif\u2019e planlad\u0131klar\u0131 oyunu\noynam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Tam be\u015f g\u00fcnd\u00fcr her ak\u015fam\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc birlikte ge\u00e7iriyor, herkes kendi\nhalinde oyalan\u0131rken, herhangi birisinin telefonunda Elif\u2019in aramas\u0131n\u0131 bekliyorlard\u0131.\nSinan g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc bir mek\u00e2ndaki sesleri kay\u0131t cihaz\u0131na kaydetmi\u015f, Elif\u2019in\ntelefonu geldi\u011finde de kayd\u0131 oynatarak arka planda ses olmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hala a\u00e7\u0131k olan telefonun\nderinliklerinden Elif\u2019in ac\u0131 dolu \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 duyuldu\u011fu an Sinan bembeyaz kesildi.\nCeren titreyen ellerinden telefonu Sinan\u2019\u0131n avucuna b\u0131rakarak koltu\u011fa \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.\nKimseden \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordu. Buna devam edecekler miydi? Sinan\u2019\u0131n Sevda ile\nbirlikte olabilece\u011fine Elif\u2019i inand\u0131racaklar m\u0131yd\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan hoparl\u00f6r\u00fc kapat\u0131p telefonu\nkula\u011f\u0131na dayad\u0131. Uzaktan Elif\u2019in h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 duyuyordu. Banyoda olmal\u0131yd\u0131.\nOnun evine ko\u015farak kollar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na almak ve a\u011flamamas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemek istedi.\nElif\u2019in h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131yla i\u00e7i sanc\u0131yordu. Pes etmeye \u00e7ok yak\u0131nd\u0131. Ona ko\u015fup,\nyetinebilece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemek istedi. Elif ne kadar\u0131n\u0131 verirse o kadar\u0131yla\nyetinece\u011fini. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Evden f\u0131rlayaca\u011f\u0131 an h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131n\nkesildi\u011fini fark etti. Kulak kesilerek susmalar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti. E\u015fya k\u0131r\u0131lma\nsesi miydi o? Evin i\u00e7inde durmadan sa\u011fa sola f\u0131rlat\u0131l\u0131p k\u0131r\u0131lan e\u015fyalar\u0131n\nsesiydi, evet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\u2019in ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duydu ama ne dedi\u011fi\nanla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131yordu. Giderek yakla\u015ft\u0131 sesler. Elif\u2019in banyosu bitmi\u015f \u015fimdi salon\nda\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordu. Sonra duydu Sinan Elif\u2019i. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cLanet olsun sana pislik! Lanet olsun!\nNe demeye ba\u015fka kad\u0131nlara sulan\u0131yorsun! Hayvan!\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\u2019\u0131n renkten renge girdi\u011fini\ng\u00f6rd\u00fckleri an ikisi birden ba\u015f\u0131na \u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp duymaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131lar. Zeynep uzan\u0131p\ntelefonu yeniden hoparl\u00f6re ald\u0131. \u00c7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131karmadan \u201cHayvan! Pi\u00e7 kurusu! Pislik!\u201d\ndiye ba\u011f\u0131ran Elif\u2019i \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131ktan donakalarak dinlediler. Bir \u015feyler daha\nk\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. \u201cSeni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr\u00fcm!\u201d Bir \u015feyler daha \u00e7at\u0131rdad\u0131. \u201cSen benimsin!\u201d Ses\nkesildi. Ne telefondan, ne de dinleyenlerden \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131. Elif\u2019in nefes nefese\nama sakin sesi bir kez daha duyuldu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSen benimsin.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Telefonu yeniden eline ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlatan\nh\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131lardan sonra hat kesildi. Herkesin y\u00fcz\u00fcne bir s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131\u015f yerle\u015fmi\u015f,\nparmaklar zafer i\u015faretiyle havaya kalkm\u0131\u015fken, Sinan\u2019\u0131n telefonu \u00e7ald\u0131. Bo\u015f bo\u015f\nekrana bakan Sinan, \u201cElif,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131lday\u0131p telefonu a\u00e7t\u0131, bembeyaz y\u00fcz\u00fcnde\nkula\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sesinin titremesini \u00f6nlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak \u201cEfendim,\u201d dedi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ceren ve Zeynep p\u00fcr dikkat Sinan\u2019\u0131\nseyrediyorlard\u0131. Adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u015foka girmi\u015f bir ifade vard\u0131. Tek bir kelime\netmedi. Sonra telefon kapand\u0131. Sinan \u00f6ylece bo\u015flu\u011fa bakt\u0131. 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