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Sinan g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131s\u0131p kad\u0131n\u0131n tela\u015fl\u0131 halini\nseyretti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNedir\no sa\u00e7ma olan?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBu\u2026\nBen\u2026 \u00c7ok a\u00e7 de\u011filim zaten. Hemen kalkabiliriz.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elini\n\u00e7antas\u0131na uzatmas\u0131 \u00fczerine Sinan b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi bir sesle \u201cOtur yerine!\u201d diye\nt\u0131slad\u0131. \u201cAlt taraf\u0131 bir yemek yiyece\u011fiz.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tam\no s\u0131rada garsonun getirdi\u011fi tabaklar masalar\u0131na konuldu. Etler, kendisi de\nb\u00fcy\u00fck olan tabaktan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yor, yine kocaman bir k\u00e2seye konulmu\u015f patatesler\nalt\u0131n rengiyle a\u011f\u0131z suland\u0131r\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015earaplar\u0131n\u0131\ntazeleyen garson, sessizce ortadan kayboldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>T\u00fcm\nilgisini taba\u011f\u0131na veren Elif muhte\u015fem g\u00f6r\u00fcnen eti k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck par\u00e7alara b\u00f6lmeye\nba\u015flad\u0131. B\u0131\u00e7ak \u00e7ok iyi kesiyordu. Sanki \u00f6zel olarak bu restoran i\u00e7in \u00fcretilmi\u015f,\ndiye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Dokundurdu\u011fu anda \u00e7aba bile harcamadan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir par\u00e7a tabakta\nayr\u0131l\u0131veriyordu. A\u011fz\u0131na atmak akl\u0131na gelmeden tabakta onlar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fik \u015fekillerde\nyerle\u015ftiriyor, bu y\u00fczden de Sinan\u2019a yemek istemedi\u011fi bir yemekle oyalanan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck\nbir \u00e7ocu\u011fu \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hayat\nne garipti. Bir an elinde olan bir \u015fey bir sonraki an u\u00e7up gidiveriyordu. Yirmi\nalt\u0131 y\u0131l boyunca sadece yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kendisinin olmu\u015ftu Sonra Sinan \u00e7\u0131kagelmi\u015f,\nona \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne ait olma, sahip olma duygusunu ya\u015fatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Onunla, mutlulu\u011fun\nvar olabilece\u011fine inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sadece \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn, ona hayat\u0131n farkl\u0131 ya\u015fanabilece\u011fini\ng\u00f6stermi\u015fti. Sadece \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sessizlik\nrahats\u0131z edici boyuta ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda buna daha fazla dayanamay\u0131p Sinan\u2019a bakt\u0131.\n\u201cNas\u0131l bir \u015fey?\u201d Onun anlamadan bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, \u201cHayat\u0131ndaki bir y\u0131l\u0131\nhat\u0131rlamamak,\u201d diye a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir\ns\u00fcre suskun kalan gen\u00e7 adam, \u201cKorkutucu,\u201d dedikten sonra g\u00f6zlerini di\u011fer\nmasalarda gezdirdi. \u201c\u015eu masadaki adam\u0131 tan\u0131yor olabilirim ama bunu bilmiyorum.\nTan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 s\u00f6ylese itiraz edemem. Elini uzatsa tokala\u015fmak zorunda kal\u0131r\u0131m.\nBelki d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131md\u0131r, ama ben bunu hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. O ise benim hat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n\nfark\u0131nda. Arenaya 1-0 yenik \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dekorasyonu\nincelerken bir s\u00fcre sessiz kald\u0131. \u201cBu yere daha \u00f6nce gelmi\u015f olabilirim ama\nbilmiyorum.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerini\nElif\u2019inkilere sabitleyerek \u201cSana be\u015f y\u00fcz bin lira bor\u00e7lu oldu\u011fumu\ns\u00f6yleyebilirsin ve ben aksini kan\u0131tlayamam,\u201d dedikten sonra o da taba\u011f\u0131ndaki\nyemekle oynamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cK\u0131sacas\u0131\ntam bir belirsizlik ve s\u00fcrekli tetikte olman\u0131 gerektiriyor. Kendini neden\nkorumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fin i\u00e7in de tetikte olman bir yarar sa\u011flam\u0131yor.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\nnefes almadan onu dinliyor, Sinan\u2019\u0131n haf\u0131zas\u0131n\u0131n yerine gelmemesi durumunda\nonun bir par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n her zaman eksik kalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark ediyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNeden\nolurmu\u015f? Ben insanlar\u0131n unutmak istedikleri bir \u015fey oldu\u011funda bu t\u00fcr travmalar\nya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015earab\u0131ndan\nbir yudum alan Sinan alayla g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. \u201cKimsenin benden fazla bir \u015fey bildi\u011fi\nyok, doktorlar\u0131n bile. Olabilirmi\u015f, ge\u00e7ebilirmi\u015f ya da ge\u00e7meyebilirmi\u015f. Bir\nilac\u0131 yok, bir tedavisi yok. T\u00fcm g\u00fcvensizli\u011fimle ya\u015famaya devam etmek\nzorunday\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\nrahats\u0131z olarak yerinde k\u0131p\u0131rdand\u0131. Sinan\u2019\u0131n g\u00fcvensizlik hissetmesi onun\nkarakterine ayk\u0131r\u0131yd\u0131. O ne istedi\u011fini bilen, bunun i\u00e7in her \u015feyi g\u00f6ze alan bir\nerkekti. G\u00fcvensizlik onun karakterinde hi\u00e7bir \u015fekilde kendine yer bulamazd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cKendini\ng\u00fcvensiz hissetmene gerek yok ki. Hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlamasan bile temel bilgilerinde bir\neksiklik yok. Unuttu\u011fun, senin i\u00e7in \u00f6nemli olabilecek ka\u00e7 ki\u015fi biriktirmi\u015f\nolabilirsin ki bir y\u0131l i\u00e7inde? Ortam\u0131 oldu\u011funda hepsiyle yeniden tan\u0131\u015f\u0131r,\nili\u015fkine devam edersin. \u00d6nem vermediklerini hat\u0131rlamamak sana bir \u015fey\nkaybettirmez. Bu t\u00fcr k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u015feylerin hayat\u0131n\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rmas\u0131na izin vermezsin\nsen.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir\ns\u00fcre d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen gen\u00e7 adam, \u201cBeni tan\u0131yorsun de\u011fil mi?\u201d diye sordu. Elif\u2019in sessiz\nkalmas\u0131 \u00fczerine \u201cAram\u0131zda \u00f6zel bir ili\u015fki ya\u015fand\u0131, \u00f6yle mi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kocaman\neller Elif\u2019in kalbini s\u0131k\u0131p nefes almas\u0131na engel oluyordu. Beyni \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k at\u0131yor,\n\u00e7aresizli\u011fine hayk\u0131rarak a\u011flamak istiyordu. Bundan sonra s\u00f6yleyecekleri\nkendisinin \u00f6l\u00fcm ferman\u0131yd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBu\n\u00f6nemli de\u011fil.\u201d Sinan\u2019\u0131n ka\u015flar\u0131 havaya kalkt\u0131, duyduklar\u0131na inanam\u0131yor gibiydi.\nElif\u2019i bir s\u00fcre s\u00fczd\u00fckten sonra s\u00f6ylediklerini tekrarlad\u0131. \u201c\u00d6nemli de\u011fil\ndemek.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOnlar\nsenin i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 ya\u015fanmad\u0131. Gelecek hayat\u0131n senin \u00f6n\u00fcnde ve onunla ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\nyine senin se\u00e7imlerine ba\u011fl\u0131. Senin hayat\u0131n\u0131n do\u011frular\u0131, \u015fu an hissettiklerin.\nYa\u015fam\u0131na devam eder, zaman\u0131 geldi\u011finde yeni se\u00e7imlerini yapars\u0131n. Bunu da kimse\nelinden alamaz.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAh,\no halde \u00f6zg\u00fcr\u00fcm. Seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden yoluma devam edebilirim.\u201d Alayc\u0131 bir bak\u0131\u015f\nyerle\u015fti g\u00f6zlerine. Kendisini kapana k\u0131s\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibi hissediyordu. \u201cBuna izin\nvermeyecekmi\u015fsin gibi bir his uyand\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n benim i\u00e7imde oysa. Kul\u00fcbe\ngeldi\u011fimde, G\u00fclay y\u00fcz\u00fcnden sana ihanet ediyormu\u015fum gibi hissettirdin bana!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\nk\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kesilip \u00e7atal\u0131 elinden b\u0131rakt\u0131. Titremesi y\u00fcz\u00fcnden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrece\u011finden\nkorkmu\u015ftu. Hayat\u0131n\u0131n tek \u00f6nemli insan\u0131na \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc veriyor olmak zaten\nkendisini kahrediyordu. Bir de bunun i\u00e7in alay edilmesi haks\u0131zl\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u00d6zg\u00fcrs\u00fcn\nSinan. Biz \u00f6zel bir \u015fey ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k ve bunu bilmen gerekiyordu. Ama bitti zaten.\nGe\u00e7irdi\u011fin kazada ben kendi Sinan\u2019\u0131m\u0131 kaybettim. Tekrar hat\u0131rlasan bile art\u0131k\n\u00f6nemi yok.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\nka\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131larak rahats\u0131z bir \u015fekilde sandalyesinde k\u0131p\u0131rdand\u0131. Duyduklar\u0131ndan\nho\u015flanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201cHat\u0131rlamam neden \u00f6nemsiz oldu \u015fimdi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde\nkederle, \u201cO bana senin bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n gibi bakmazd\u0131. O benden \u015f\u00fcphe etmezdi, benimle\ni\u00e7ten i\u00e7e alay etmezdi,\u201d dedi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zleri\nuzaklara dald\u0131, sadece kendisine ait bir \u015feyden bahsetti\u011fini bilerek h\u00fcz\u00fcnle g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\u201cSinan beni g\u00f6rmeyi ba\u015far\u0131p se\u00e7en tek insand\u0131. Bana se\u00e7ildi\u011fimi hissettiren tek\ninsan. O bu y\u00fczden benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok de\u011ferliydi.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sustu\u011funda,\nSinan hi\u00e7bir \u015fey demeden kad\u0131n\u0131 seyretti. Buradan \u00e7ok uzaklarda, ba\u015fka bir\nyerdeydi. Ba\u015fka bir erkekle, de\u011fer verdi\u011fi o tek erkekleydi. \u0130\u00e7inden y\u00fckselen\nk\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k duygusu dayan\u0131lmazd\u0131. Bu kad\u0131n \u015fu an oldu\u011fu halini hi\u00e7e sayarak,\nasl\u0131nda kendisinden bahsediyordu. \u0130kiye b\u00f6l\u00fcnme duygusu i\u00e7ine ta\u015f gibi oturdu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSen\no de\u011filsin. Art\u0131k de\u011filsin.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\ni\u00e7inden y\u00fckselen panik duygusuyla bir an \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli bir \u015feyi yitirmi\u015f oldu\u011fu\nhissine engel olamad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHat\u0131rlasan\nbile, onun se\u00e7iminin onuru senin \u015f\u00fcphelerinle kirlendi. Benim bunu unutmam\nm\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u00f6ylenecek\nba\u015fka bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Elif\u2019in buradan bir an \u00f6nce \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p Sinan\u2019dan\nuzakla\u015fmas\u0131 gerekiyordu. O halde \u00f6ncelikli olan tek \u015fey bu yeme\u011fi bitirmekti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonraki\ndakikalarda Sinan kendisine hi\u00e7 bakmayan Elif\u2019i seyretti. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn\ndikkatini taba\u011f\u0131ndaki ete vermi\u015f, d\u00fczenli bir h\u0131zla yeme\u011fini yiyordu. Garson\n\u015faraplar\u0131n\u0131 tazelemek i\u00e7in geldi\u011finde elini kadehinin \u00fczerine kapatarak ba\u015fka\nistemedi\u011fini belli etti. G\u00f6zleri bu\u011fulu, ruhu masan\u0131n kilometrelerce\n\u00f6tesindeydi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\nsinirle kad\u0131n\u0131n o an \u00f6teki adam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hissetti. \u00d6teki adam. \u00d6teki Sinan.\nKendisinin asla eri\u015femeyece\u011fi aziz&#8230; <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birden\nbu kad\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn ilgisini kendisine istedi. Elif\u2019in bu duygular\u0131 kendisine\nduymas\u0131n\u0131, biraz \u00f6nce g\u00f6zlerine yerle\u015fen o bak\u0131\u015fla kendisine bakmas\u0131n\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7aresizlik\ni\u00e7ini sarmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, bu masadan kalkt\u0131klar\u0131 an Elif\u2019in hayat\u0131nda bir\ndaha hi\u00e7 var olamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu. Kad\u0131n hayat\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gidiyordu.\nKendisini \u00f6zg\u00fcr b\u0131rak\u0131yordu. Oysa Sinan\u2019\u0131n hissetti\u011fi \u015fey \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck de\u011fildi. O\nElif\u2019i istiyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYa\nben devam etmek istiyorsam?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kocaman\neller Elif\u2019in kalbini s\u0131k\u0131p nefes almas\u0131na engel oldu. Beyni \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k at\u0131yor,\n\u00e7aresizli\u011fine hayk\u0131rarak a\u011flamak istiyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen\nsenin se\u00e7imin de\u011filim Sinan. Ba\u015fka birisinin se\u00e7imiyim. Ben senin hayat\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131na\nd\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131m sadece.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBelki\nde o ba\u015fka birisinin se\u00e7imine g\u00fcvenmeliyim. Olamaz m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYeter!\u201d\n<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kibarl\u0131k\numurunda de\u011fildi art\u0131k Elif\u2019in. Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda oturan bu yabanc\u0131n\u0131n kendisiyle\nhi\u00e7bir ilgisi olamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kesin olarak anlamas\u0131 gerekiyordu. Anlamas\u0131 ve uzak\ndurmas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBu\nbir oyun de\u011fil Sinan. Ben kimsenin emaneti falan de\u011filim. Ben Elif Erdem\u2019im.\nKendi se\u00e7imlerini yapan, kendi kararlar\u0131n\u0131 veren \u00f6zg\u00fcr bir bireyim ve kendime\nsahip \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131m. Evet, onu se\u00e7tim ama seni se\u00e7miyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\u2019\u0131n\naniden masaya vurdu\u011fu yumruk, sakin ortama bir bomba gibi d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Elif yerinden\nz\u0131plarken b\u00fct\u00fcn masalardaki ba\u015flar onlara d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, merakla onlara bak\u0131yordu.\nGen\u00e7 adam k\u0131zg\u0131nl\u0131ktan kora d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 Elif\u2019e dikti ve sanki anlamas\u0131\ni\u00e7in gerekiyormu\u015f gibi her heceyi vurgulayarak t\u0131slad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen\nde Sinan \u00d6zhan\u2019\u0131m ve ufak bir haf\u0131za kayb\u0131n\u0131n hayat\u0131m\u0131 alt \u00fcst etmesine izin\nverecek de\u011filim k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck han\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birbirine\ndikilmi\u015f iki \u00e7ift g\u00f6z, bir sonraki hamleye kadar mola alan boks\u00f6rlerin k\u0131sa\nduraksamas\u0131 kadar temkinle birbirinden ka\u00e7mad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBana\nsen geldin. Seni hayat\u0131mdaki tek kad\u0131n olarak se\u00e7ti\u011fimi s\u00f6yledin. 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