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Sarma\u015f\u0131klarla bezenmi\u015f bir bah\u00e7enin i\u00e7inden\nge\u00e7erek girdikleri mek\u00e2n, masalar\u0131 birbirinden uza\u011fa yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015f, lo\u015f\n\u0131\u015f\u0131klarla mahremiyet sa\u011flanm\u0131\u015f, az ki\u015fi taraf\u0131ndan bilinen yeni bir restorand\u0131.\n<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Se\u00e7im\nyap\u0131lacak bir men\u00fcleri yoktu. Sadece eti nas\u0131l pi\u015fmi\u015f sevdi\u011finiz sorulup\nsonras\u0131nda antrkot, patates k\u0131zartmas\u0131 ve salata getiriliyordu. Yeme\u011fin yan\u0131nda\na\u00e7\u0131lan \u015farap i\u015fletmenin \u00f6zel \u015farab\u0131yd\u0131, ard\u0131ndan sunulan \u00e7ikolatal\u0131 sufle ise\nmuhte\u015femdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zeynep\nbunlar\u0131 anlatarak mek\u00e2n\u0131 \u00f6verken, i\u00e7eride en kuytuda kalan masaya y\u00f6nlenip\nyerle\u015fti. Hafif bir m\u00fczik kulaklar\u0131 ok\u015fuyor, m\u00fc\u015fterilere sohbet i\u00e7in ideal bir\nortam sunuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sipari\u015flerini\nverip \u015faraplar\u0131n\u0131n konulmas\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan, Zeynep suya sabuna dokunmayan\nkonulardan bahsederek ortam\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sinan rahat, Elif suskundu.\n\u0130kisini kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya oturtmay\u0131 ba\u015farm\u0131\u015f olan Zeynep, telefonunu masaya\ngeli\u015fig\u00fczel b\u0131rakt\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Restoranda\nkendilerinden ba\u015fka dolu iki masa daha vard\u0131 ve onlar da mek\u00e2n\u0131n kendilerinden\nuzak di\u011fer k\u00f6\u015felerine da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ortam\u0131n\nsakinli\u011fi Sinan\u2019a \u00e7ok iyi gelmi\u015fti. Yan\u0131ndaki kad\u0131nlar\u0131n ikisinin de kendisini\nhi\u00e7 tedirgin etmemesi ho\u015funa gidiyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zeynep\n\u00e7ocuk gibiydi. Onu bir kad\u0131n olarak d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp nas\u0131l ni\u015fanland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlayam\u0131yordu.\nEvlili\u011fin ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmesine ramak kala k\u0131z\u0131n vazge\u00e7mesine minnettard\u0131. Onunla bir\narkada\u015f olarak arada s\u0131rada bir araya gelmek ho\u015f olabilirdi. Ama bir hayat\u0131\nbirlikte ge\u00e7irmek? Babas\u0131n\u0131n annesine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi bakabilmek? Bunu balay\u0131\ns\u0131ras\u0131nda bile yapabilece\u011fini sanm\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ruhunu\nok\u015fuyormu\u015f gibi bakard\u0131 babas\u0131 annesine. Annesi de bunu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce k\u0131zar\u0131r, an\u0131nda\nsokulurdu kocas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na. Etraflar\u0131nda kimin oldu\u011funu umursamazlard\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zleriyle\nbirbirlerine neler anlatt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 hep merak ederdi Sinan. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken onlar\u0131n \u2018g\u00f6z\ndili\u2019 konu\u015ftuklar\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6z dilini kimden \u00f6\u011frenece\u011fini sordu\u011funda annesi\nkahkahalar aras\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fay\u0131p, ayn\u0131 dili bilen bir kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde\nkendili\u011finden konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flayacaklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Etraf\u0131\nizleyen Elif\u2019e ili\u015fti g\u00f6zleri. Ortam\u0131 inceliyor, masadaki konu\u015fmayla pek\nilgilenmiyordu. Mek\u00e2n\u0131n havas\u0131n\u0131 sevmi\u015fti, g\u00f6zlerindeki yumu\u015fak bak\u0131\u015ftan\nanlayabiliyordu bunu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kar\u015f\u0131\ntarafta oturan \u00e7ifte bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcp o masaya bakt\u0131. Ya\u015fl\u0131\nbir adam\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u00e7ok gen\u00e7 ve g\u00fczel bir gen\u00e7 k\u0131z vard\u0131. Aralar\u0131nda otuz ya\u015ftan\nfazla olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Elif\u2019in onaylamayan bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc doluydu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Fazla\nbakmadan \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7evirdi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ve Sinan\u2019\u0131n onu izleyen g\u00f6zleriyle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131.\nDerin bir s\u0131z\u0131 ge\u00e7ti g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7inden, ama hemen y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Zeynep\u2019e \u00e7evirip\nanlatt\u0131klar\u0131yla ilgilenmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\u2019i\nhangi s\u0131n\u0131fa koyaca\u011f\u0131na bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc karar verememi\u015fti Sinan. \u0130\u015fini anlat\u0131rken\nsayg\u0131 duymu\u015f, sevgilisi oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi\u011finde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsemi\u015f, kendisine\nyap\u0131\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce meraklanm\u0131\u015f, ilgisiz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda da sinirlenmi\u015fti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eimdi\nise onun do\u011fru s\u00f6yledi\u011fini hissediyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00d6ncelikle,\nge\u00e7irdi\u011fi kazay\u0131 ona sadece Zeynep s\u00f6ylemi\u015f olabilirdi. E\u011fer Zeynep bunu\nyapm\u0131\u015fsa, aralar\u0131nda bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu biliyor olmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130kincisi\nbu kad\u0131n \u00e7ok ak\u0131ll\u0131yd\u0131. Davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6ncesini, sonras\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 bir\n\u015fekilde tartabildi\u011fi konu\u015fmalar\u0131ndan belli olmu\u015ftu. G\u00f6ze ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 zorluklar bile\nonu \u00e7ok \u00f6zel bir \u015fey ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131na inand\u0131r\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir\nde, ba\u015fka bir adamm\u0131\u015f gibi \u00f6b\u00fcr Sinan\u2019\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne s\u00fcr\u00fcp durmasayd\u0131&#8230; &nbsp;Akl\u0131 en \u00e7ok buna tak\u0131l\u0131yordu. Kendi hakk\u0131 olan\nbir \u015feyden mahrum b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu duygusunun \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7emiyor, bunu bir meydan\nokuma olarak al\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Kendini k\u0131skan\u0131yorsun o\u011flum.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u00e7inde\nbir \u015feyler s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Lanet olsun, nas\u0131l bir \u00e7\u0131kmazd\u0131 bu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u2026Servet\nBey\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rmenizi isterdim.\u201d G\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi Sinan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elinin\n\u00fczerine konan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck eli g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde \u015fa\u015falad\u0131. Zeynep onun g\u00f6zlerine yumu\u015fak\nbak\u0131\u015flarla bir s\u00fcre bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u0130\u015fte\nhep bunu yapard\u0131n bana.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131s\u0131k\ng\u00f6zleriyle onu s\u00fcz\u00fcp neden bahsediyor olabilece\u011fini anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Elif\u2019in\noturdu\u011fu yerde huzursuzca k\u0131p\u0131rdanmas\u0131ndan rahats\u0131zl\u0131k duyup g\u00f6zlerini ona\n\u00e7evirdi. \u0130kisine de bakmadan etraf\u0131n\u0131 seyrediyordu gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNeyi?\u201d\ndiye ihtiyatla sordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zleri\ng\u00fclen gen\u00e7 k\u0131z, \u201cAnlatt\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 dinliyormu\u015f gibi yap\u0131p beden dilinle tepkiler\nverirdin ama ben senin o an oturdu\u011fun yerden kilometrelerce uzakta oldu\u011funu\nbilirdim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn\nk\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kesildi\u011fini anlamak i\u00e7in aynaya bakmas\u0131na gerek yoktu. Yanaklar\u0131\nalev alev yan\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHakl\u0131s\u0131n,\n\u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elini\nbir kez daha s\u0131k\u0131p b\u0131rakt\u0131 Zeynep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cDileme,\nb\u00f6yle olmayaca\u011f\u0131n kad\u0131n senin i\u00e7in do\u011fru kad\u0131n olacakt\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130stemsizce\ng\u00f6zleri Elif\u2019e y\u00f6nelip onunkilerle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hemen ba\u015fka tarafa\n\u00e7eviren gen\u00e7 kad\u0131na bir s\u00fcre daha bakt\u0131ktan sonra Zeynep\u2019e d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cZeynep\nger\u00e7ekten \u00e7ok \u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim. Daha \u00f6nce ne yapt\u0131ysam ya da yapmad\u0131ysam,\nhatal\u0131ym\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Senin gibi bir arkada\u015f\u0131 belli ki hak etmemi\u015fim. Bundan sonra daha\n\u00f6zenli olmaya niyetliyim. Umar\u0131m bana ikinci bir \u015fans verirsin.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u00e7ti\u011fi\n\u015farap Elif\u2019in bo\u011faz\u0131na ka\u00e7\u0131nca \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc gizlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kendisine mesaj m\u0131\nvard\u0131 bu c\u00fcmlede? Yan g\u00f6zle Sinan\u2019a bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, onun kendisini izledi\u011fini\ng\u00f6rmek kalbinin heyecanla sars\u0131lmas\u0131na neden oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zeynep\nc\u0131v\u0131l c\u0131v\u0131l konu\u015farak Sinan\u2019\u0131 tekeline ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, art\u0131k kilometrelerce uzakta\nolan Elif\u2019ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130kinci\nbir \u015fans\u2026 Sinan\u2019la. Kendisine bu \u015fans verilmi\u015f olsa, mutluluktan \u00f6lebilirdi.\nAma \u00f6yle bir \u015fans olmayacakt\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu Sinan kendisine tamamen yabanc\u0131 bir\nadamd\u0131. Sinan\u2019\u0131n bedenine bamba\u015fka biri yerle\u015fmi\u015fti sanki. Onun gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor,\nonun gibi konu\u015fuyor ama onun gibi bakm\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\nona bug\u00fcne kadar pek \u00e7ok duyguyu bar\u0131nd\u0131ran bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stermi\u015fti ama\nbunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7birisinde \u015f\u00fcphe olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eimdiyse ne zaman Sinan\u2019a baksa, onun\ng\u00f6zlerindeki \u2018Ben bu kad\u0131nla nas\u0131l beraber olmu\u015f olabilirim?\u2018 sorusunun tiz sesi\nElif\u2019in kulak zar\u0131na hasar veriyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birlikte\nolduklar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn i\u00e7erisinde Sinan\u2019la ruhlar\u0131n\u0131n birle\u015fti\u011fini hissetmi\u015fti. Buna\nyeniden kavu\u015fman\u0131n bir hayal oldu\u011funu art\u0131k anl\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\u2019\u0131n\nhaf\u0131zas\u0131 geri gelmeyebilirdi. Elif\u2019le payla\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 asla hat\u0131rlamayabilirdi.\nDaha da k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc, hat\u0131rlayabilirdi ama o zamana kadar yapt\u0131klar\u0131, Elif\u2019in i\u00e7inde\nonulmaz yaralara neden olabilirdi. O yaralarla Elif, bir daha asla ilk\nduygular\u0131n\u0131n safl\u0131\u011f\u0131na eri\u015femeyebilirdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Asl\u0131nda\nhepsinin \u00f6tesinde bir \u015fey vard\u0131. Elif\u2019in kendisine itiraf etmeyi g\u00f6ze alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131\nbir \u015fey. Kendi Sinan\u2019\u0131 ile ilgili bir \u015fey. O son sabah. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hat\u0131ralar\n\u00e7ok ac\u0131mas\u0131zd\u0131. G\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p i\u00e7indeki ac\u0131n\u0131n biraz durulmas\u0131n\u0131 bekledi. O\ng\u00fcn, onun kendisine olan duygular\u0131ndan rahats\u0131z oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015f miydi?\nSinan\u2019\u0131n \u00e7ok da mutlu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan kayg\u0131lanmam\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\u2019\u0131n\nortadan \u00e7ekilmesinden sonra bunu inatla gerilere itmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu.\nSanki o \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u00fc kirletecekmi\u015f gibi, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyi reddetmi\u015fti. Ama \u015fu an, ikinci\nbir \u015fans kelimeleri beyninde dola\u015f\u0131rken, art\u0131k saklanmak imk\u00e2ns\u0131zd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kendi\nSinan\u2019\u0131yla bile olmaza ko\u015fan bir ili\u015fkide yabanc\u0131 bir Sinan\u2019la \u0131srarc\u0131 olman\u0131n\nne anlam\u0131 olabilirdi ki? \u0130kisi birbiri i\u00e7in asla do\u011fru olmayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Salata\nservisinin yap\u0131lmas\u0131yla hepsinin ilgisi masaya d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Garson yanlar\u0131ndan\nayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Zeynep\u2019in telefonu \u00e7almaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Arayan\u0131n ismi rahatl\u0131kla\ng\u00f6r\u00fclebiliyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sevda.\n<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Keyifle\nkonu\u015fmaya ba\u015flayan Zeynep\u2019in sevimli y\u00fcz\u00fc \u00f6nce ka\u015f \u00e7at\u0131\u015f\u0131, sonra hay\u0131flanma,\nard\u0131ndan da ikna ifadeleriyle bezendi. Sorun her neyse \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Telefonu\nkapatt\u0131ktan sonra kimsenin soru sormas\u0131na olanak vermeden konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zetledi.\n<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSevda\nbana gelmi\u015f\u201d Sinan\u2019a d\u00f6n\u00fcp, \u201ckuzenim,\u201d diye bilgi verdi,&nbsp; \u201cAnahtar\u0131 yokmu\u015f ve kap\u0131da kalm\u0131\u015f. \u00c7ok\n\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm ama bu saatte onun ta Eryaman\u2019a d\u00f6nmesine i\u00e7im raz\u0131 olmad\u0131. Ben\nkalk\u0131yorum, siz keyfinizi bozmay\u0131n, yeme\u011fe devam edin.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\u2019in \u201cAma\u2026\u201d diye ba\u015flayan c\u00fcmlesini bitirmesine izin vermeden tela\u015fl\u0131 hareketlerle \u201cBunu tekrarlayal\u0131m Sinanc\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc maalesef sizinle payla\u015famad\u0131m. 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