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Do\u011fan\u2019\u0131n olmamas\u0131, yo\u011funla\u015fabilece\u011fi\nbir proje bulunmamas\u0131, \u00e7evresindeki insanlarla konu\u015furken tetikte olma\nzorunlulu\u011fu bunaltm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 gen\u00e7 adam\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Doktora\nyapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ziyaretler seyrekle\u015fmi\u015f, art\u0131k sadece beklemesi gerekti\u011fini \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti.\nBeklemek zordu. Son bir y\u0131lda ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 bilememek s\u00fcrekli bir tedirginlik\nyarat\u0131yordu i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kimi\nzaman kendisine selam veren birisini tan\u0131yamamak, verilmi\u015f s\u00f6zler oldu\u011fundan\nbahsedildi\u011finde g\u00fcvenememek iyice kabu\u011funa \u00e7ekilmesine neden olmu\u015ftu. \u0130\u015fyerinde\ncamdan manzaray\u0131 seyrederek dalg\u0131n dalg\u0131n oturuyor, ak\u015famlar\u0131 da do\u011fruca eve\ngidiyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Do\u011fan\nolsa, kendisini daha g\u00fcvende hissedecekti ama donan\u0131mda \u00e7\u0131kan bir p\u00fcr\u00fcz\nnedeniyle yaz\u0131l\u0131m\u0131 test a\u015famas\u0131na alamam\u0131\u015flard\u0131 hen\u00fcz. En az bir hafta daha\nLibya\u2019da kalacakt\u0131. Onun da akl\u0131 Sinan\u2019dayd\u0131 ama k\u0131sac\u0131k telefon g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeleriyle\narkada\u015f\u0131na destek olmak d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kendi kendini yemekten ba\u015fka bir \u015fey\nyapam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\ni\u00e7in t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131n en olumlu yan\u0131, annesiyle babas\u0131n\u0131n bir s\u00fcre yan\u0131nda kalacak\nolmalar\u0131yd\u0131. Babas\u0131 altm\u0131\u015f iki ya\u015f\u0131nda, g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc kuvvetli bir adamd\u0131. Ge\u00e7en sene\nemekli olmu\u015f, sonras\u0131nda da e\u015fi Ayten\u2019le Antalya\u2019da ya\u015famaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Sinan\nbunlar\u0131 onlardan \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O\ns\u0131r\u0131m gibi adam\u0131n kalp krizi ge\u00e7irmi\u015f olmas\u0131n\u0131 akl\u0131 alm\u0131yordu. Hala deliler\ngibi birbirlerine \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olan kar\u0131-koca, bu geli\u015fmeyle \u00e7ok sars\u0131lm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Ama \u015fu\nanda ikisi de Sinan\u2019a destek olabilmek amac\u0131yla kendilerini toparlam\u0131\u015f, korkuyu\n\u00fczerlerinden atm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Evin\ni\u00e7inde ama\u00e7s\u0131zca dolanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, annesini mutfakta kendisine en sevdi\u011fi\nkurabiyeyi yaparken buldu. Ayten, s\u0131radan bir konu a\u00e7arm\u0131\u015f gibi, \u201cZeynep nas\u0131l\nbu aralar, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor musunuz?\u201d diye bir a\u011f\u0131z yoklamas\u0131na yeltendi. O\u011flan\u0131 biraz\nd\u00fcrt\u00fcklemekten zarar gelmezdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eu\no\u011flan ni\u015fanland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ne \u00e7ok sevinmi\u015flerdi. Tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131nda Zeynep\u2019i de \u00e7ok\nbe\u011fenmi\u015flerdi. Ama Ayten onun Sinan i\u00e7in fazla toy olmas\u0131ndan korkmu\u015ftu. Yine\nde kocas\u0131yla o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fczenli bir hayata sahip olup kendilerine bir torun\nvermesinin hayalini kurmu\u015flard\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ni\u015fan\nbozuldu\u011funda kendisi rahatlam\u0131\u015f, kocas\u0131 ise b\u00fcy\u00fck hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cEvet\nanne, hastaneden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra bir iki kere g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Arkas\u0131ndan\ngelecekleri bildi\u011finden, onu \u00fcmitlendirmemek i\u00e7in onunla ilgilenmedi\u011fini\ns\u00f6ylemeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcyse de gereksiz geldi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ketum\no\u011fullar\u0131 konu\u015fturmak annelerin becerisiydi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cEve\ngelen o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck han\u0131m kimdi peki?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\u2019\u0131n\ns\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131n bir anda dikle\u015fti\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, maden bulmu\u015f gibi dikkatini o\u011fluna\nyo\u011funla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cZeynep\u2019in\n\u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 ajanstaki metin yazar\u0131\u2026\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zleri\nk\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n. Ne kadar masum bir a\u00e7\u0131klamayd\u0131 o \u00f6yle. K\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zleri geldi\ng\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne. Anneleri korkutacak bir tip de\u011fildi, ne yaz\u0131k ki Sinan\u2019\u0131n\nilgisini \u00e7ekebilecek bir tip de de\u011fildi. Yine de elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131n deneyimiyle o k\u0131zda\nbir \u015fey sezinlemi\u015fti Ayten. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ok\nheyecanl\u0131 ama kararl\u0131 gelmi\u015f, giderken ise \u2018hem bu evin hem de d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sahibi\nbenim, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 denk al\u0131n\u2019 bak\u0131\u015f\u0131yla gitmi\u015fti. O andan sonra da Sinan\nsaatlerce \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma odas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f, annesi yat\u0131\u015f saatine kadar her odaya\ngiri\u015finde onu ayn\u0131 bo\u015f bak\u0131\u015flarla bulmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cGecenin\no saatinde buraya metin yazmaya m\u0131 gelmi\u015f?\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gen\u00e7\nadam g\u00f6zlerini annesinden uza\u011fa ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Bu kad\u0131n av k\u00f6pe\u011fi gibi iz s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu\nve Sinan\u2019\u0131n verecek bir cevab\u0131 yoktu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cKendisine\nait bir \u015feyin bende oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyip gitti.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Biraz\ndaha kurcalarsa o\u011flunu mutfaktan ka\u00e7\u0131raca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilen Ayten \u201cBu ak\u015fam bir yere\n\u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor musun?\u201d diye sorarak aralar\u0131ndaki konu\u015fmay\u0131 devam ettirmenin daha\nak\u0131ll\u0131ca oldu\u011funa karar verdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nereye\n\u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131 ki Sinan, kiminle \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131? Zeyneplerin ajans\u0131n\u0131n oradaki barda \u00e7ok\nrahat etmi\u015fti asl\u0131nda. Herkes Zeynep\u2019i tan\u0131yor, kendisine ili\u015fen olmuyordu.\nMalum ki\u015fi d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda onu geren hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Saatine bakt\u0131, \u00e7ok da ge\u00e7\nde\u011fildi. \u015eimdi oraya gidebilir, Zeynep varsa onunla oturur, yoksa barda tek\ntak\u0131labilirdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Yalanc\u0131. Elif\u2019i g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in \u00f6l\u00fcyorsun.\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tamam,\nonu g\u00f6rmek istiyordu. \u015eans\u0131n\u0131 bir kez daha denemek istiyordu. O kad\u0131n kendisini\nbir m\u0131knat\u0131s gibi \u00e7ekiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBabam\nnerede?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSalonda\ntelevizyona bak\u0131yordu en son.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBiraz\nona bakay\u0131m,\u201d diyerek annesinin yan\u0131ndan s\u0131v\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Biraz daha konu\u015furlarsa\nannesinin ruhunu didik didik etmesinden korkmu\u015ftu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinan\u2019\u0131n\nhuzursuz elektri\u011fi, daha i\u00e7eri girer girmez Hasan\u2019\u0131n dikkatinden ka\u00e7mad\u0131.\nKa\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131k, oturmas\u0131 i\u00e7in yan\u0131ndaki yeri i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNas\u0131ls\u0131n\nbaba? \u0130yi hissediyor musun?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131\ni\u00e7in duydu\u011fu kayg\u0131 \u00e7ok belirgindi. Akl\u0131 bu kalp krizini hala alm\u0131yordu.\n\u00d6ylesine hayat ve sevgi dolu bu adam\u0131n en sa\u011flam yerinin kalbi olmas\u0131\ngerekirdi. \u0130\u00e7inde y\u0131llard\u0131r annesi vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen\niyiyim evlat. As\u0131l sen nas\u0131ls\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u0130yiyim,\na\u011fr\u0131m yok bu aralar.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cYine\nde bir a\u011fr\u0131n varm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorsun. Kim senin kafan\u0131 bu kadar me\u015fgul\nediyor?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tanr\u0131m\nbu ikisinin antenleri inan\u0131lmazd\u0131. Bu kadar seviliyor olmak i\u00e7ini mutlulukla\ndoldurdu. Evet, kafas\u0131 me\u015fguld\u00fc. \u015eehla g\u00f6zler, kendilerinden ba\u015fka tek bir\nd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye yer b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cKendisine\nula\u015fma yollar\u0131n\u0131 tamamen kapatan bir kad\u0131na nas\u0131l yakla\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n baba?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hm,\nkonu ciddiydi. Demek Sinan\u2019a tav\u0131r koyan bir kad\u0131n s\u00f6z konusuydu. O\u011fluna bunu\nyapabilecek bir kad\u0131n olabilece\u011fini hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015fti. Sinan maestro gibiydi. O\nbagetini sallar, \u00e7evresi m\u00fczi\u011fi onun uygun g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015fekilde \u00e7alard\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hasan\nbu duyguyu iyi bilirdi. Ayten\u2019i g\u00f6rene kadar kendisi de o bageti sallay\u0131p\ndurmu\u015ftu. \u2018Ne zaman kayb\u0131,\u2019 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Ayten\u2019siz ge\u00e7en y\u0131llar\u0131 hala i\u00e7ini\nburkard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cE\u011fer\nbunu bana annen yapm\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131, d\u00fcnya \u00fczerinde hi\u00e7bir kuvvetin bana engel\nolmas\u0131na izin vermezdim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAnnemin\nbile mi?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAnnenin\nbile.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAma\no annem de\u011fil. Asl\u0131na bakarsan \u00e7ok da tan\u0131m\u0131yorum. Sadece aram\u0131za koydu\u011fu\nengellere tahamm\u00fcl edemiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zl\u00fcklerinin\n\u00fczerinden o\u011flunu s\u00fczen Hasan, ka\u015flar\u0131ndaki \u00e7at\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcndeki daralmay\u0131\ny\u00fcre\u011finde hissetti. \u0130nsan\u0131n o\u011flunun can\u0131 ac\u0131yorsa babas\u0131n\u0131n da ac\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cTahamm\u00fcl\nedemedi\u011fin birisinin sana engel koymu\u015f olmas\u0131 m\u0131 yoksa \u00f6zellikle ona ula\u015fam\u0131yor\nolmak m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cO\n\u00f6nemli baba. Neden bilmiyorum ama \u00f6nemli.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cO\nzaman neden hala buradas\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Keskin\ng\u00f6zlerini babas\u0131na \u00e7eviren Sinan, i\u00e7inde y\u00fckselen heyecan\u0131 bast\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak\n\u201cGer\u00e7ekten, neden?\u201d dedikten sonra \u201cBen biraz d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum,\u201d diyerek odadan\n\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hasan\u2019\u0131n\nduda\u011f\u0131na yerle\u015fen g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme gurur doluydu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2018Sana\nkolay gelsin k\u0131z\u0131m. Nas\u0131l bir f\u0131rt\u0131nan\u0131n yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyorsun.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>***<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ajans\ntam kadro geldi\u011fi barda yemek saatinin gelmesiyle azalmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, en son\nZeynep ve Elif kalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Yemek i\u015fi ikisinin de g\u00f6z\u00fcnde b\u00fcy\u00fcyor, bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc\nyerlerinden kalkam\u0131yorlard\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\nzaten \u00e7ok az yemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Can\u0131 o mutfakta hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmak istemiyor,\nd\u0131\u015far\u0131da yerse yiyor, yoksa \u00f6\u011f\u00fcn atl\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cEve\ngitmek istemiyorum,\u201d dedi Zeynep\u2019e. \u201cBir yerlere gidip yiyelim mi?\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ensesinde\nbir kar\u0131ncalanma hissetti\u011fi an, kalbini yerinden oynatan o sesi duydu yan\u0131\nba\u015f\u0131nda. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u0130yi\nak\u015famlar, rahats\u0131z etmedi\u011fimi umar\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zeynep\nyerinden f\u0131rlay\u0131p Sinan\u2019\u0131 co\u015fkuyla kucaklad\u0131. Adam\u0131n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmadan gelmesine \u00e7ok\nmutlu olmu\u015f, yan\u0131nda ba\u015fka biri olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kontrol etmeyi de ihmal\netmemi\u015fti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\nsesi kesilmi\u015f, Sinan\u2019dan ba\u015fka her yere bak\u0131yor, onlar\u0131n kucakla\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131n\nbitmesini beklerken, oradan nas\u0131l ka\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n hesaplar\u0131n\u0131 yap\u0131yordu. \u00c7antas\u0131na\nuzand\u0131\u011f\u0131 an, Sinan\u2019\u0131n meydan okuyan sesiyle \u201cBenim geli\u015fim yine senin gitmene\nneden olacaksa, can\u0131m bu i\u015fe \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131lacak, bilgin olsun,\u201d dedi\u011fini duydu. Ona\ndo\u011fru d\u00f6n\u00fcp, \u201cBen zaten birazdan kalkmay\u0131 planl\u0131yordum,\u201d dedi\u011finde Sinan\u2019\u0131n\ng\u00f6zlerinde adeta ate\u015f \u00e7akt\u0131. \u201cAsl\u0131nda ben birlikte yemek yemeyi planlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131\nduymu\u015f, iki g\u00fczel kad\u0131na yemek \u0131smarlama \u015fans\u0131m olmas\u0131n\u0131 umuyordum.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Elif\nSinan\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine bakakald\u0131. Ne diyordu bu adam? Yard\u0131m istercesine Zeynep\u2019e\nbakt\u0131. Gen\u00e7 k\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde muzip bir \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131yla \u201cBay\u0131l\u0131r\u0131z Sinanc\u0131m, ikimiz de\nb\u00fcy\u00fck bir zevkle teklifini kabul ediyoruz,\u201d demesiyle \u00e7aresizlik i\u00e7inde\nonaylayan bir \u015feyler m\u0131r\u0131ldanarak ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nefesini\nd\u00fczene sokmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken sinirle i\u00e7inden s\u00f6yleniyordu. Ne gerek vard\u0131 b\u00f6yle\nbir \u015feye? 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