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Dilin hareket kabiliyetindeki\nsorun ile sa\u011f kol ve bacaktaki felci bir doktordan ba\u015fka kim g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek\nm\u00fcjdelerdi ki kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakine? Hasta ve yak\u0131nlar\u0131 i\u00e7in k\u00e2bus olan bu durum,\ndoktorlar i\u00e7in kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131labilecek en olumlu tabloydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yi\u011fit bir s\u00fcre\nkonu\u015fma s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7ekecekti \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc beynin konu\u015fma merkezi etkilenmi\u015fti. Sa\u011f\ntarafa h\u00fckmeden fel\u00e7 ise \u00f6demin bir sonucuydu. Her ikisinin de h\u0131zla iyile\u015fmesi\ni\u00e7in Yi\u011fit\u2019in \u00e7aba g\u00f6stermesi yeterli olacakt\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ahmet \u00dcnsal mutluydu.\nO\u011flu hayattayd\u0131. En \u00e7ok bir sene i\u00e7inde de sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na tamamen kavu\u015fmu\u015f olacakt\u0131.\nO halde, hayat ya\u015fanmaya de\u011ferdi. G\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeli, her \u015feye olumlu y\u00f6nden\nbak\u0131lmal\u0131yd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Selen, Ahmet\nBey\u2019in co\u015fkulu varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yan\u0131nda bir sekreter ya da hem\u015fireden fazlas\u0131 de\u011fildi.\nKibard\u0131. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu. Yi\u011fit\u2019in b\u00fct\u00fcn ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zetiyor, kolluyordu. Daha\nfazlas\u0131n\u0131 oynay\u0131p riyak\u00e2rl\u0131k yapmak istemiyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kendi\nihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6rt senedir oldu\u011fu gibi yine geri plana itmi\u015fti. Ama onu\nrahats\u0131z eden bu de\u011fildi. Ba\u015fa \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fey ba\u015fkayd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zeyra\u2019y\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f\nolmak, gitmek i\u00e7in yeterliydi ama hissetmeye engel olam\u0131yordu. Bunu, Yi\u011fit\u2019in\ng\u00f6zleri a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onun oldu\u011fu y\u00f6ne bakmak, kalbinin hala k\u00fct\nk\u00fct atmas\u0131 demekti. Yan\u0131nda oturmak, t\u00fcylerinin diken diken olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in\nyeterliydi. G\u00f6zlerinin kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131, bir bal k\u00fcp\u00fcnde bo\u011fulup gitmekti.\nS\u0131rt\u0131ndaki yast\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fczeltmek, eskiden yan\u0131na k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131vermekse, \u015fimdi bunun sadece\nhayalini kurabilmekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hastanede ge\u00e7irdikleri\ns\u00fcre, bir anlamda Yi\u011fit ile vedala\u015fma oluyordu. Yi\u011fit \u00dcnsal\u2019\u0131n <em>kar\u0131m<\/em> olmayan kar\u0131s\u0131, al\u0131\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu ve\nisteyerek k\u00f6lele\u015fti\u011fi o ya\u015famdan son kareleri \u00e7al\u0131yordu. Bu y\u00fczden biraz buruk,\nbiraz soluk, ne ya\u015farsa da\u011farc\u0131\u011f\u0131na at\u0131yordu. Selen Bircan kendi yoluna\ngitti\u011finde, Selen \u00dcnsal\u2019\u0131n sahip oldu\u011fu k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lara bile \u00f6zlem duyacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yi\u011fit?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O Selen\u2019i\nseyrediyordu. Kibarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, uzakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, varken yoklu\u011funu, derinlere saklamaya\n\u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 heyecan\u0131n\u0131, yan\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a kalbinin \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ko\u015fuyu, g\u00f6zlerine\nili\u015fti\u011finde sarho\u015f olan ruhunu\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yi\u011fit Selen\u2019in\ngitme karar\u0131n\u0131 sezmi\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Hatta uyudu\u011funu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlarda s\u00f6ylediklerini\nduymu\u015f bile olabilirdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama konu\u015fma\ns\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 olmasayd\u0131 da \u2018Neden?\u2019 demeyecekti. \u2018Gitme,\u2019 de demeyecekti. Bunlar\nyerine, \u2018Ne istiyorsan onu yap\u2019 bile demeden arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp gitmeleri vard\u0131\nYi\u011fit\u2019in. \u00d6yle ki, Selen, gitmeye karar verenin kim oldu\u011fundan \u015f\u00fcpheye\nd\u00fc\u015fecekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu o kadar Yi\u011fit\n\u00dcnsal\u2019a \u00f6zg\u00fc bir davran\u0131\u015f bi\u00e7imiydi ki, kocas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinden kayan pikeyi d\u00fczeltirken\nbile\u011fi bir el taraf\u0131ndan tutuldu\u011funda, Selen bunun ne oldu\u011funu alg\u0131layamad\u0131.\nYi\u011fit\u2019in eli. Sol eli. Nazik\u00e7e ama b\u0131rakmayacak gibi tutuvermi\u015fti Selen\u2019i. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00f6rt senenin\nb\u00fct\u00fcn dokunu\u015flar\u0131 ge\u00e7ti o an g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnden. Kalbi hepsi i\u00e7in bir kez daha dans\netti. Nefesi tekrar tekrar kesildi. Her birini tek tek \u00f6zledi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama bu dokunu\u015f\nonlardan farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Yi\u011fit\u2019in Selen\u2019e ilk geli\u015fiydi bu. Ve ondan ilk talebi\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemek\nistiyordu adam, Selen bunun ne oldu\u011funu anlam\u0131yordu. Yi\u011fit anlatamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in\nde\u011fildi ama. \u0130li\u015fki tan\u0131mlar\u0131nda b\u00f6yle bir c\u00fcmle olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7indi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tuttu\u011fu bile\u011fi\n\u00e7ekti adam. Kad\u0131n\u0131 biraz daha yakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 kendisine. Eskiden olsa, onu \u00f6pt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc\nmesafe&#8230; Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 omzuna yaslad\u0131\u011f\u0131, kuca\u011f\u0131na kuruluverdi\u011fi mesafe\u2026 Birbirinin bedenini\nezbere bilen insanlar\u0131n al\u0131\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu mesafe\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eimdi ise bir\ndaha asla o kadar yak\u0131n olunmayacakt\u0131. Zeyra\u2019dan sonra kavu\u015fmalar\u0131n da \u00f6nemi kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\nO y\u00fczden, g\u00f6zlerini hapsetmesine izin vermeden kirpiklerinin ard\u0131na saklad\u0131\nkendini. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBen gitmeden\nyata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz konuma getirelim mi? Hem\u015firelerden istemek zorunda kalma.\u201d diye\nka\u00e7ak g\u00fcre\u015fti\u011finde sesi kendi kula\u011f\u0131na bile \u00e7ok riyak\u00e2r geldi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bal g\u00f6zlerin i\u00e7i\nbo\u015fald\u0131, donukla\u015ft\u0131. Adam kad\u0131n\u0131n bile\u011fini b\u0131rak\u0131p \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir g\u00fc\u00e7 harcayarak\nyata\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki d\u00fc\u011fmeye bast\u0131. Yatak d\u00fcz konuma gelene kadar da g\u00f6zlerini\nkar\u0131s\u0131ndan ay\u0131rmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Bunun i\u00e7in sana ihtiyac\u0131m yok.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra\u2026 Kapand\u0131\ng\u00f6zler. \u0130\u015fte bu kadard\u0131. Basit bir hareket ve Selen kendisini evin kap\u0131s\u0131na\nkonmu\u015f bir sokak \u00e7ocu\u011fu gibi hissediverdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hastaneden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p\narabas\u0131na binerken durmaks\u0131z\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131yordu. D\u00f6rt y\u0131l boyunca \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu adam\u0131n\nkendisine ataca\u011f\u0131 tek bir ad\u0131m i\u00e7in \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026 O ad\u0131m, hi\u00e7 k\u0131ymeti kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda\ngelmi\u015f, Selen, nedenini bile soramam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Her \u015fey can\u0131n\u0131\nyak\u0131yordu. Ne kadar \u00f6zlemi\u015fti kocas\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Ona dokunmay\u0131, ona sar\u0131lmay\u0131\u2026 \u00d6pmeyi,\ni\u00e7ine almay\u0131\u2026 Onun g\u00f6zlerinde, ellerinde, dudaklar\u0131nda var olmay\u0131\u2026 Bunlar\u0131 bir\ndaha hi\u00e7 yapamayacakt\u0131. Ad\u0131 konsa da konmasa da Yi\u011fit ve Selen ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zaten ad\u0131n\u0131 da Zeyra\nkoymu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zeyra\u2026 Hasm\u0131. Dostu.\n\u0130mrendi\u011fi, k\u0131skand\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir kahkaha\nf\u0131rlad\u0131 dudaklar\u0131ndan. Ac\u0131 dolu\u2026 Yi\u011fit kendisine de\u011fer vermemi\u015fti, Zeyra\u2019n\u0131n\nise Selen\u2019den haberi bile yoktu. Ama Selen, ikisini de \u00f6nemsiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Bana kendini hat\u0131rlat Zeyra! Sesini hi\u00e7 eksik etme zihnimden.\n\u00d6fkemi canl\u0131 tut. Yerimi g\u00f6ster bana. Yoksa ko\u015fa ko\u015fa d\u00f6n\u00fcp sar\u0131laca\u011f\u0131m o\nadama.\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gece yaln\u0131z,\ngece zul\u00fcmd\u00fc. G\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 o geceki sevgilisiydi. Yine de sabah olup hastaneye\ngiderken i\u00e7inde hissetti\u011fi heyecan \u00e7ok ac\u0131kl\u0131yd\u0131. Ne kadar gizlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da\no, erke\u011fine kavu\u015fmak i\u00e7in sab\u0131rs\u0131zlanan \u00e2\u015f\u0131k bir kad\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ahmet Bey\nkendisinden \u00f6nce geldi\u011finden, suskun kalma l\u00fcks\u00fcne sahip olmak \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi.\nHem\u015firelerin odaya giri\u015f ve \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda hepsine g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyor, bir pandomim\nsanat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6zeniyle <em>hasta e\u015fini <\/em>sergiliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Di\u011fer g\u00fcnlerden\nfarkl\u0131 olarak Yi\u011fit\u2019in g\u00f6zlerini \u00fczerinde hissedemedi\u011fini ne zaman fark\netti\u011fini bilemedi. Enerjisi h\u0131zla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp t\u00fckendi\u011finde belki\u2026 Ya da teni\nparlamaktan vazge\u00e7ti\u011finde\u2026 Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 canl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yitirip p\u00f6rs\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar\n\u015feklinde omzuna d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir anda\nolmu\u015ftu. Yi\u011fit bir anda Selen\u2019e bakmaktan vazge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Onun g\u00f6zleriyle birlikte\nSelen\u2019in ruhu da bedeninden \u00e7ekilip gitmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Duvara yaslan\u0131p\nbaba o\u011fulu seyretti bir s\u00fcre. G\u00fcnl\u00fck gazeteyi eline alm\u0131\u015f, haberlerden\nba\u015fl\u0131klar okuyordu Ahmet Bey. Hastay\u0131 hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inde tutmak i\u00e7in iyi bir\ntaktikti. Tabi hasta bunu istiyorsa\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yi\u011fit\u2019in babas\u0131n\u0131n\ns\u00f6yledikleriyle ilgilendi\u011fini sanm\u0131yordu. G\u00f6zleri tavana sabitlenmi\u015f, kendi\nd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerine bak\u0131yordu. \u0130lk defa Yi\u011fit\u2019in \u00fczerindeki mutsuzlu\u011fun fark\u0131na vard\u0131\nSelen. Y\u0131llard\u0131r ald\u0131rmazl\u0131k diye yaftalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 duygu ger\u00e7ekte bu olabilir miydi?\n<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cBug\u00fcn adalet\ny\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn be\u015finci g\u00fcn\u00fc. 15 Haziran\u2019da Ankara\u2019dan ba\u015flad\u0131lar y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye. 100\nkilometre tamamlan\u0131r bu ak\u015fam. Bir aya yak\u0131n s\u00fcrecek her halde \u0130stanbul\u2019a\nula\u015fmalar\u0131.\u201d \u00c7evirdi sayfalar\u0131\u2026 Bahsedecek g\u00fczel bir haber ar\u0131yordu, yoktu\u2026 \u00c7ok\nuzun s\u00fcredir hi\u00e7 g\u00fczel haber yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Monit\u00f6rden gelen\nritmin bozulmas\u0131 ans\u0131z\u0131n oldu. O ana kadar rutin bir tempoya sahipken, vuru\u015flar\nbir anda h\u0131zland\u0131. Selen de Ahmet de yerlerinde dona kald\u0131lar. Yi\u011fit hala\ntavana bak\u0131yordu. Ama art\u0131k s\u0131tmaya tutulmu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na titriyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hem\u015fireye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\nAhmet Bey. Selen kelimesiz kald\u0131. Beyaz \u00f6nl\u00fckler ko\u015ftu odaya, Yi\u011fit \u00f6nl\u00fcklerden\ng\u00f6r\u00fcnmez oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00e2bustu. G\u00f6zlerde\nkorku, duvar\u0131n kenar\u0131na sinmi\u015flerdi. Hasta olmak ba\u015fkayd\u0131, kriz an\u0131 ba\u015fka\u2026\nHastaya bak\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Ona \u00e7orba yap\u0131l\u0131r, nane limon i\u00e7irilir, yatakta tutulurdu.\nKriz ise biti\u015flere gebeydi. Bir an varken di\u011fer an sevdi\u011fin gidebilirdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cO g\u00fcn de b\u00f6yle\nolmu\u015ftu i\u015fte.\u201d Adam \u015foka girmi\u015fti. \u201cSenin gidece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi\u011fim i\u00e7in oldu\u011funu\nsanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Selen buna\nihtimal bile vermemi\u015fti ki zaten. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u2018Yalanc\u0131.\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cAdalet Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\nnas\u0131l tetiklemi\u015f olabilir ki Yi\u011fit\u2019i?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Adalet Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u2026\n15 Haziran\u2026 Be\u015finci g\u00fcn\u2026&nbsp; \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc\nPer\u015fembe\u2026 Zeyra\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130sterik bir\nkahkaha f\u0131rlad\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan. \u0130lk krizin sebebini bilmiyorlard\u0131ysa da, bu\nkrizinkini Selen kesinlikle biliyordu. Yi\u011fit tarihin fark\u0131na varm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir\naydan fazla s\u00fcredir hastanede oldu\u011funu, Haziran ay\u0131n\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc per\u015fembesini\nka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131\nbilmeden yasland\u0131\u011f\u0131 duvardan do\u011frulup sakin olmas\u0131na \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 ad\u0131mlarla yata\u011fa\ny\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Bir s\u00fcre doktorlar\u0131 seyredip karar vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kaybedilecek bir\n\u015fey var m\u0131yd\u0131? Kay\u0131plar\u0131n hepsi zaten verilmemi\u015f miydi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yata\u011f\u0131n ba\u015fucuna\ngidip serum ask\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki yerini ald\u0131. Yi\u011fit\u2019in kula\u011f\u0131na e\u011filip\nf\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cPer\u015fembe g\u00fcn\u00fc\ngittim ben parka.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bekledi. T\u0131pk\u0131\nge\u00e7en sefer oldu\u011fu gibi, seslerin durulmas\u0131n\u0131, ko\u015fturmacan\u0131n bitmesini umdu. Ama\nde\u011fi\u015fen bir \u015fey olmad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Duymam\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131?\nSars\u0131larak titreyen beden, \u2018\u00d6l\u00fcm i\u015fte bu kadar yak\u0131nda,\u2019 diyor gibiydi. \u2018Hi\u00e7bir\n\u015fey yapamazs\u0131n. Sevdi\u011fini al\u0131r giderim, ard\u0131ndan bile ko\u015famazs\u0131n.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Korku kendisini\nfel\u00e7 etmeden Yi\u011fit\u2019e ula\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHastanede benim\nhastama yard\u0131mc\u0131 oldu\u011fun i\u00e7in gelemedi\u011fini, haber vermek i\u00e7in beni g\u00f6nderdi\u011fini\ns\u00f6yledim ona.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Azalmad\u0131 ses.\nDurulmad\u0131 titreme. Neden o kadar emin olmu\u015ftu ki Zeyra\u2019y\u0131 s\u00f6ylerse her \u015feyin\nd\u00fczelece\u011fine? Ahmet Bey\u2019e bakt\u0131. Adam, duvar kenar\u0131na sinmi\u015f, umutla kendisini\nizliyordu. Sanki Selen sihirli de\u011fne\u011fini sallayacak ve Yi\u011fit eski haline\nd\u00f6n\u00fcverecekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cTamam, dedi.\nBabam\u0131 bekler, giderim, dedi.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Olmuyordu i\u015fte, g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorlar\nm\u0131yd\u0131? Selen i\u015fe yaram\u0131yordu. Selen Yi\u011fit\u2019in ilac\u0131 falan de\u011fildi. Selen <em>kar\u0131m<\/em> de\u011fildi. E\u011fer Yi\u011fit \u00f6l\u00fcrse, Selen\nhi\u00e7bir \u015fey de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Korku bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131\ns\u0131k\u0131p oldu\u011fu yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131na neden olmadan az \u00f6nce e\u011filip dayand\u0131 Yi\u011fit\u2019in\nyana\u011f\u0131na. Dudaklar\u0131 dokundu tenine. \u00d6per gibi, ok\u015far gibi bekledi bir s\u00fcre. Art\u0131k\nelinde hi\u00e7bir kozu yoktu. Sadece yalvarabilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cL\u00fctfen gitme!\nL\u00fctfen!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130ste\u011fine\nkavu\u015fmak i\u00e7in pervas\u0131zca ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 birbirine katan bir \u00e7ocuk \u015f\u0131mar\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir\nanda sakinle\u015fti adam. Bedeni sars\u0131lmay\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131, yava\u015f\u00e7a teslim oldu. Yirmi metrekare\ni\u00e7erisindeki her \u015fey de onunla birlikte duruldu. Sesler azald\u0131, ko\u015fturmaca\nbitti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama Selen\nt\u00fckenmi\u015fti. Yi\u011fit\u2019i kaybetme ihtimali darmada\u011f\u0131n etmi\u015fti kad\u0131n\u0131. Sevdi\u011fini\nkendisine nefes yap\u0131p, i\u00e7inde biriken b\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015flar\u0131 ak\u0131tt\u0131 yasland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bedene. Y\u0131llar\u0131\na\u011flad\u0131. Ezikli\u011fini, \u00e7aresizli\u011fini ta\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinden. Ahmet Bey\u2019in yan\u0131na\ngelip, onu uzakla\u015ft\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hayal meyal fark etti. Yerinden do\u011frulup\ny\u00fcr\u00fcmeye yeltendi ama bile\u011fine s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 yap\u0131\u015fan el buna izin vermedi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>H\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131\nb\u0131\u00e7ak gibi kesilen kad\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131. Bedenine dokunan tenin tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ahmet ise o\u011flunun\nelini gelininin bile\u011finde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc anda t\u00fcm cevaplara kavu\u015fmu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na par\u0131ldad\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSeni yan\u0131nda\nistiyor!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bo\u015f g\u00f6zlerle kay\u0131npederinin\ns\u00f6zlerine anlam y\u00fcklemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Doktorlardan bir itiraz g\u00f6rebilmek i\u00e7in tek\ntek y\u00fczlerine bakt\u0131. Cazc\u0131 doktor bilmi\u015f bilmi\u015f s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131yordu. Hem\u015fireler ak\u015fama\nkadar konu\u015facak konu bulman\u0131n keyfiyle gevremi\u015flerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hala tavana\nbakan adam\u0131n g\u00f6zlerini g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in her \u015feyi verece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken, bir anda\nhapsoldu bal renklerine. Genellikle i\u015f hayat\u0131nda g\u00f6rmeye al\u0131\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu bir\nbak\u0131\u015f vard\u0131 i\u00e7lerinde. Meydan okumayd\u0131. \u2018S\u0131k\u0131ysa git,\u2019 diyordu. \u2018S\u0131k\u0131ysa uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131n\nbu kad\u0131n\u0131 benden.\u2019 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sa\u00e7mayd\u0131. \u00c7ok\nsa\u00e7mayd\u0131. O hi\u00e7 bu filmin ba\u015frol\u00fcn\u00fc oynamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Replikleri bilmiyordu. Ama\nmizansen tan\u0131d\u0131kt\u0131. Adam kad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7eker, kad\u0131n adam\u0131n yan\u0131na uzan\u0131r, sokulurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Adam kad\u0131n\u0131\n\u00e7ekti. Kad\u0131n onlar\u0131 izleyenleri fark bile etmedi. Yata\u011fa oturdu. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 adam\u0131n\nomzuna yak\u0131n yerde yast\u0131\u011fa koydu. Ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 yukar\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p yata\u011fa yerle\u015fti.\nSokuldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bile\u011findeki el hareket\nedip parmaklar\u0131na ula\u015ft\u0131. Parmaklar birbiri i\u00e7ine ge\u00e7ip di\u011ferine doland\u0131. Bir\ndaha hi\u00e7 b\u0131rak\u0131lmayacakm\u0131\u015f gibi hapsoldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Mahreme \u015fahit\nolman\u0131n \u015fartlanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 odadan doktorlar. Ahmet \u00dcnsal, \u00e7ok k\u0131sa bir an\nizledi sevdi\u011fi iki insan\u0131. Y\u00fcre\u011finin bu kadar heyecan\u0131 kald\u0131ramayaca\u011f\u0131ndan\nkorkup, ses \u00e7\u0131karmadan o da terk etti oday\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Biraz eve gidip uyumal\u0131yd\u0131. Melike\u2019nin hat\u0131ralar\u0131ndaki kokusuna sar\u0131lmal\u0131yd\u0131. Yi\u011fit\u2019in emin ellerde oldu\u011funu f\u0131s\u0131ldayan sesini dinlemeliydi. Tek ba\u015f\u0131na her \u015fey \u00e7ok zordu. 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